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我是一个不善表达的巫婆
平时说话大剌剌
所以让人以为我是个什么都说的人
其实，越在乎的，我越不懂怎么表达
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[2011]
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~ 什么都没有 ~
Date Stamp:
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
在你所在
呼吸你所呼吸
看你所看
听你所听
那天，我问自己：
“当真爱输给了时间、输给了善变、输给了现实。。真爱还剩什么？什么都没有。。”
真爱，屈服了吗？是没办法，只好输。
真爱，可以征服一切？是童话，现实可没这回事。
在你所在，但回忆给不了温度。
呼吸你所呼吸，但现实的空气很稀薄。
看你所看，但我们都只看见变化。
听你所听，但我们都听不见心说的 。
~在乎谁比较多 ~
在你所在
呼吸你所呼吸
看你所看
听你所听
那天，我问自己：
“当真爱输给了时间、输给了善变、输给了现实。。真爱还剩什么？什么都没有。。”
真爱，屈服了吗？是没办法，只好输。
真爱，可以征服一切？是童话，现实可没这回事。
在你所在，但回忆给不了温度。
呼吸你所呼吸，但现实的空气很稀薄。
看你所看，但我们都只看见变化。
听你所听，但我们都听不见心说的 。
[[ End of Chapter // 什么都没有 ]]
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Date Stamp:
Friday, August 05, 2011
一个人，在喧闹的街上。好吵，但心里却是如此寂寞。可以在朋友面前假装，但开怀的笑声和爱笑的眼睛就在他们的一不留神，失去踪影。她的眼神总是漂到远方，而思绪飞得更远。
她不喜欢在生活里找寻任何可以联想到他的人事物，但这似乎已变成了个习惯。
她不喜欢在空闲的时候就想起过去，但常常都不自禁。
一个人，在孤寂的公司里。好静，但她脑海却是如此起伏不定。不需要对谁说话，她不想开口，就这样也好。少说少错少是非； 没有和谁要好，就没有在乎，没有起伏的心情，没有复杂的人事物。她，越来越像他了。
他一个人，故意不说话、故意不在乎、故意冷漠。他想只在乎自己就好，爱自己最重要，别人真的都无所谓。
他的笑声背后，也有他想保护的人，他在乎的人。
他的寂寞背后，也想要有个依靠，有个听他说话，陪他吃饭的人。
这些都是真的，只有不在乎是装的。
如果真的不在乎，他就不会静静地守在她身边。
如果真的不在乎，他就不会在意她的心情。
如果真的不在乎，他就不会介意她身边有谁谁谁。
如果真的不在乎，他就不会试探她对他的感觉。
如果真的不在乎，他就会和她在一起。
在乎，是在乎谁比较多，不仅仅是在乎而已。
没关系，这。。都已经过去了。。
~伤害 ~
一个人，在喧闹的街上。好吵，但心里却是如此寂寞。可以在朋友面前假装，但开怀的笑声和爱笑的眼睛就在他们的一不留神，失去踪影。她的眼神总是漂到远方，而思绪飞得更远。
她不喜欢在生活里找寻任何可以联想到他的人事物，但这似乎已变成了个习惯。
她不喜欢在空闲的时候就想起过去，但常常都不自禁。
一个人，在孤寂的公司里。好静，但她脑海却是如此起伏不定。不需要对谁说话，她不想开口，就这样也好。少说少错少是非； 没有和谁要好，就没有在乎，没有起伏的心情，没有复杂的人事物。她，越来越像他了。
他一个人，故意不说话、故意不在乎、故意冷漠。他想只在乎自己就好，爱自己最重要，别人真的都无所谓。
他的笑声背后，也有他想保护的人，他在乎的人。
他的寂寞背后，也想要有个依靠，有个听他说话，陪他吃饭的人。
这些都是真的，只有不在乎是装的。
如果真的不在乎，他就不会静静地守在她身边。
如果真的不在乎，他就不会在意她的心情。
如果真的不在乎，他就不会介意她身边有谁谁谁。
如果真的不在乎，他就不会试探她对他的感觉。
如果真的不在乎，他就会和她在一起。
在乎，是在乎谁比较多，不仅仅是在乎而已。
没关系，这。。都已经过去了。。
[[ End of Chapter // 在乎谁比较多 ]]
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Date Stamp:
Monday, March 21, 2011
有一种伤害，看不见，又或许被视而不见；不知觉地在心里划下一道又一道的伤痕。
等哪天被发现的时候，已经是伤痕累累、已经无法修补。
曾经的沉沦，如果可以，谁不想早点醒来、谁不想摆脱预料中的伤害？
因为来不及，因为对你的那份爱，在我发现的时候，已经根深蒂固。
所以我让自己受到伤害了，所以我让自己继续沉沦了。
我们之间的微笑背后，是什么？
是一份无法相爱的沉默？还是只剩下我自作多情的一份执著？
~如果可以的话 ~
有一种伤害，看不见，又或许被视而不见；不知觉地在心里划下一道又一道的伤痕。
等哪天被发现的时候，已经是伤痕累累、已经无法修补。
曾经的沉沦，如果可以，谁不想早点醒来、谁不想摆脱预料中的伤害？
因为来不及，因为对你的那份爱，在我发现的时候，已经根深蒂固。
所以我让自己受到伤害了，所以我让自己继续沉沦了。
我们之间的微笑背后，是什么？
是一份无法相爱的沉默？还是只剩下我自作多情的一份执著？
[[ End of Chapter // 伤害 ]]
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Date Stamp:
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
如果可以的话，我想牵你的手。
如果可以的话，我想和你聊到天亮。
如果可以的话，我不想不理你。
如果可以的话，我不想生气你。
如果可以的话，我希望我们之间存有信任。
如果可以的话，我希望自己别这么在意你。
如果可以的话，我希望你比现在更在意我。
如果可以的话。。我想爱你一辈子。
如果可以的话。。或许。。我们不该相遇。
~a happier me then ~
如果可以的话，我想牵你的手。
如果可以的话，我想和你聊到天亮。
如果可以的话，我不想不理你。
如果可以的话，我不想生气你。
如果可以的话，我希望我们之间存有信任。
如果可以的话，我希望自己别这么在意你。
如果可以的话，我希望你比现在更在意我。
如果可以的话。。我想爱你一辈子。
如果可以的话。。或许。。我们不该相遇。
[[ End of Chapter // 如果可以的话 ]]
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Date Stamp:
Monday, November 22, 2010
i was "revising" my blog and the time reads 1.25am now!! totally engrossed in the past-me. LOL
i guessed i was happier then. or is it just that i bothered recording down all my happy times here? nowadays, happy times will come with pics which will be uploaded in Facebook. so who really cares about blogging now? Xiaxue, maybe. LOL
in Nov 2010 itself, i thought i was almost on a roller coaster for the whole month, and now i am getting off (coz it is coming to the end of the month soon?). no more roller-coaster rides for me because everything ended. in the midst of my exams WTF. i think i might have been cursed~ LOL
anyway, i think i concealed well and i am so going to adopt the practice of "smile-and-let-everyone-forget-about-it". seriously, i dont think i am going to say anything more after this entry. LOL
i flashed back all the Novs for my past years, and i started comparing. i gathered coz they are all memories, so they dont hurt me at all when i read thru the entries. but well, there is nothing upsetting in those entries.
i used to be happier then. i havent been feeling really happy for almost a month. i cant stand myself feeling sad for 1 day, let alone 1 month. LOL~ it was always a 50-50 happiness kind of thingy, and i got tired of it, i guess. my tiredness wears out sooner than expected when the happiness level takes a downturn and eventually reached negative. so my mind echoed, is time to stop all these and force myself to move on. i love forcing myself to do things, which i think are rational. is that good or bad? u tell me, i am totally clueless.
anyway, having seen my previous entries and concluding that i was happier then, i am much more determined to return myself a happier me now. yes, i ought to love myself more. i believe i am worth more than i think i am. life is not over without you, life moves on..
being an angelic me (always), i am sure i will be able to face you again, re-pick our friendship and allow you to keep me as your good friend, so that you wont feel empty. i seriously cant bear the thought of leaving you in emptiness. so please, give me some time. :)
(not like he knows my blog address, but well.. just a promise to myself. HAHA!)
~郑中基 - 答应不爱你 ~
i was "revising" my blog and the time reads 1.25am now!! totally engrossed in the past-me. LOL
i guessed i was happier then. or is it just that i bothered recording down all my happy times here? nowadays, happy times will come with pics which will be uploaded in Facebook. so who really cares about blogging now? Xiaxue, maybe. LOL
in Nov 2010 itself, i thought i was almost on a roller coaster for the whole month, and now i am getting off (coz it is coming to the end of the month soon?). no more roller-coaster rides for me because everything ended. in the midst of my exams WTF. i think i might have been cursed~ LOL
anyway, i think i concealed well and i am so going to adopt the practice of "smile-and-let-everyone-forget-about-it". seriously, i dont think i am going to say anything more after this entry. LOL
i flashed back all the Novs for my past years, and i started comparing. i gathered coz they are all memories, so they dont hurt me at all when i read thru the entries. but well, there is nothing upsetting in those entries.
i used to be happier then. i havent been feeling really happy for almost a month. i cant stand myself feeling sad for 1 day, let alone 1 month. LOL~ it was always a 50-50 happiness kind of thingy, and i got tired of it, i guess. my tiredness wears out sooner than expected when the happiness level takes a downturn and eventually reached negative. so my mind echoed, is time to stop all these and force myself to move on. i love forcing myself to do things, which i think are rational. is that good or bad? u tell me, i am totally clueless.
anyway, having seen my previous entries and concluding that i was happier then, i am much more determined to return myself a happier me now. yes, i ought to love myself more. i believe i am worth more than i think i am. life is not over without you, life moves on..
being an angelic me (always), i am sure i will be able to face you again, re-pick our friendship and allow you to keep me as your good friend, so that you wont feel empty. i seriously cant bear the thought of leaving you in emptiness. so please, give me some time. :)
(not like he knows my blog address, but well.. just a promise to myself. HAHA!)
Labels: ACE
[[ End of Chapter // a happier me then ]]
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Date Stamp:
Sunday, November 21, 2010
郑中基 - 答应不爱你
明明爱很清晰 却又接受分离
我只剩思念的权利
难过还来不及 爱早已融入呼吸
不存在的存在心底
虽然很努力 练习着忘记
我的心却还没答应可以放弃了你
真的对不起 答应了你不再爱你
我却还没答应我自己
明明爱很清晰 却要接受分离
我只剩思念的权利
难过还来不及 就让爱融入空气
不存在的存在心底
说好要忘记 偏偏又想起
原来我的心还没有答应放弃了你
真的对不起 虽然曾经答应了你
我却还没答应我自己
却又如何真的不爱你
~that same damn feeling ~
郑中基 - 答应不爱你
明明爱很清晰 却又接受分离
我只剩思念的权利
难过还来不及 爱早已融入呼吸
不存在的存在心底
虽然很努力 练习着忘记
我的心却还没答应可以放弃了你
真的对不起 答应了你不再爱你
我却还没答应我自己
明明爱很清晰 却要接受分离
我只剩思念的权利
难过还来不及 就让爱融入空气
不存在的存在心底
说好要忘记 偏偏又想起
原来我的心还没有答应放弃了你
真的对不起 虽然曾经答应了你
我却还没答应我自己
却又如何真的不爱你
[[ End of Chapter // 郑中基 - 答应不爱你 ]]
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Date Stamp:
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
i hate this feeling. im caught in the same plight again, if not worse.
the same damn feeling of..
what if we move on from here? NO ANSWER.
then can we move on from here first and see what happen? NO ANSWER.
so do you think we should move on from here? NO ANSWER.
SO BLOODY HELL WHAT NOW??!! i seriously dont like the idea of moving on from here when i cant even see the path. it is not liked i cant see the end of the road, it is worse. I CANT EVEN SEE WHAT I AM WALKING ON.. is it stones? fire? or cushion?
i know it is impossible to drop any promise but at least, let me know what will happen.
how can you expect me to simply follow..? :'(
~totally different yet similar ~
i hate this feeling. im caught in the same plight again, if not worse.
the same damn feeling of..
what if we move on from here? NO ANSWER.
then can we move on from here first and see what happen? NO ANSWER.
so do you think we should move on from here? NO ANSWER.
SO BLOODY HELL WHAT NOW??!! i seriously dont like the idea of moving on from here when i cant even see the path. it is not liked i cant see the end of the road, it is worse. I CANT EVEN SEE WHAT I AM WALKING ON.. is it stones? fire? or cushion?
i know it is impossible to drop any promise but at least, let me know what will happen.
how can you expect me to simply follow..? :'(
Labels: ACE
[[ End of Chapter // that same damn feeling ]]
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Date Stamp:
Sunday, October 17, 2010
we talked about fashion; you are liked my best ger frenz and we can share thoughts about the dressing of people. we discuss, we crap, we joke and we laugh. we even mock and get disgusted together.
we talked about work; you are liked my best advisor who practically know what i am thinking. you usher me to see a single matter in different lights, to give people the benefit of doubts, and most importantly, not to stress myself out due to work.
for some things, you nod your head obligingly, listening.
for some things, you try to prove me wrong, so that i know i can be wrong too.
for some things, you read out your thoughts to me, reminding me that there is always a second thought.
for some things, you keep quiet because you know i am not in the state of mind to listen.
for some things, we laughed out loud together.
i see an opposite of me in you - totally different yet similar.
it is liked a jigsaw puzzle, with all different pieces.. yet they form a beautiful picture at the end :)
~i never know.. ~
we talked about fashion; you are liked my best ger frenz and we can share thoughts about the dressing of people. we discuss, we crap, we joke and we laugh. we even mock and get disgusted together.
we talked about work; you are liked my best advisor who practically know what i am thinking. you usher me to see a single matter in different lights, to give people the benefit of doubts, and most importantly, not to stress myself out due to work.
for some things, you nod your head obligingly, listening.
for some things, you try to prove me wrong, so that i know i can be wrong too.
for some things, you read out your thoughts to me, reminding me that there is always a second thought.
for some things, you keep quiet because you know i am not in the state of mind to listen.
for some things, we laughed out loud together.
i see an opposite of me in you - totally different yet similar.
it is liked a jigsaw puzzle, with all different pieces.. yet they form a beautiful picture at the end :)
Labels: ACE
[[ End of Chapter // totally different yet similar ]]
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Date Stamp:
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
it is a weird feeling.
i never know that i can fall for the same person all over again when the new day comes.
i never know that there are so much things i want to share with a person every single day.
............. until i met you.
it is a weird feeling.
i never know that i can fall for the same person all over again when the new day comes.
i never know that there are so much things i want to share with a person every single day.
............. until i met you.
Labels: ACE
[[ End of Chapter // i never know.. ]]