this is it, my last day of service in Moya. And Daniel was saying I am not valuing what I have now by choosing to leave - the colleagues, my fave Boss, and the ever-so-cosy environment. Seriously, no thrashing, no scoldings, no arguments, no bad feelings. hmmm.. somehow is amazing how this can be done. all along i thought that Sanford is the only place but Moya proves me wrong. But of course, Sanford people will remain as friends, but for Moya, probably just a few will and not all.
sad feeling? so far not yet and I hope not. but somehow im very worried about going to my new company. in fact, i have ever thought of backing out. haha! prolly coz is due to the totally new job scope that I will be undertaking that stirs up so much unrest within myself.
oh ya, did i mention... i actually found myself a job. the interview came right before i went on leave for my exams preparation and i was offered after that weekend. so finally i managed to leave coz I found myself a job, and to be exact, it is a job that I have been looking for. so I am really glad.
Saturday, May 07, 2011
"If you are not happy working in your new company, you can come back straight away. Just say that I said so." 3 years ago, I heard this sentence from my old boss a few times when I resigned.
Just yesterday, I heard the almost-the-same sentence from my current boss. As quoted almost exactly - "If your deal with the new company doesnt get thru, you come back. (short pause) Even if your deal with the new company gets thru but you are not happy working there, you come back."
I guess I am lucky, very very lucky, to have such nice bosses. They are always offering me a role if I ever return to the company. Or were they commenting it plainly coz they know I will definitely not return? LOL
I remembered the first time I blogged about my current company was liked 2 years ago when I first joined them. Subsequently, scolding the people in there occasionally thru this blog coz I do have unreasonable colleagues there (actually only one). And now the time has come, and I need to go. I havent found a new job yet. HAHA!
In fact, people could not comprehend the reason for my resignation, may they be my ex-colleagues, my current colleagues, my family, etc. Probably let me do some sharing here.
1) My boss actually dotes on me alot, and i really mean as ALOT. We do have our fair share of arguments initially coz he is still trying to adapt to our Asian culture, etc. He does pass hurting remarks to me previously. But all those have passed. Now, he is really nice to me and he leaves me to do the tasks, and well, he doesnt scold me anymore and is always giving me ample freedom on both my work and personal matters, eg my studies. My boss is so flexible that he always allow me to go on 3 weeks leave for my studies, (probably a mixture of half and full day leave), and my colleagues will always try their best not to disturb me during this period). And since Mar 2011, my boss has been trying ways to talk me out into leaving. LOL
2) My colleagues are superb. HAHA! probably due to the fact that I been in there for 2 years, i share good working relationship with even the most difficult pax (in my pov). My colleagues are always there for me when I need their help or advice. Not once have they turned me down when I ask for help. I have colleagues who share laughter and jokes with, colleagues who listen to my woes, colleagues who care.. Despite being just the very few of us, we work hand-in-hand, helping each other wherever we can. Super nice~ :)
3) And so, you should have guessed, I dont like to be micro-managed, and the people in my company do not micro-manage AT ALL. This is the best out of everything. :)
4) Working location is only a 20 - 30 mins bus journey. Nuff said.
And it is definitely not due to salary, coz my boss had proposed a figure which I think, I am going to disrupt the internal equity if I accepted it. My brother called me a fool, a very stupid fool. And the key reason why I want to resign?
Coz I feel that I have been handling too much admin stuff and very less of HR, which I really dont like. Daniel commented that I handle admin matters very well. Ermm, for a moment, I was thinking if I should take that as a compliment. I should be handling HR matters and not admin matters. I could not be having a career switch simply coz the company requires me to do so. Boss actually has other things in mind that he wants me to handle if I stay on, not exactly admin but definitely not HR. And wow, I would then have 2 pax reporting to me, and I probably just need to delegate and oversee and shake leg. HAHAHAHA! But that is not what I want. The company is not accountable for my career but I am. Probably a few years later, I might have regretted my decision coz the company has moved itself into a very good shape and is earning big bucks, getting good bonuses.. I would leave that to later even though I am almost sure that I usually dont regret my decisions.
So why am I resigning without a job? Coz it is so difficult to get a job that I truly want, a job that offers me the learning ground in the expertise I want to go into, so that both the company and I grow together. And since it is so difficult to get the job I truly want, I would probably go for some vacation, get a very good rest before I move on or while I leisurely look for a job. While I can, while I have no commitment, this is the time for me to be jobless, with nothing to worry about. HAHA!
It is definitely a struggle. Not easy to find a job with good boss and good colleagues.. Haizz.. And that's why I am upset. I dont like to change job, seriously.
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