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我是一个不善表达的巫婆
平时说话大剌剌
所以让人以为我是个什么都说的人
其实，越在乎的，我越不懂怎么表达
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~ tis sad day ~
Date Stamp:
Monday, July 31, 2006
im feelin so tired frm all de mental torture im gettin today and my weepin makes me worse..
boyboy left our hse today. my kor cried, my da-sao cried.. i cried in de office, i believe daddy too.. and even my grandma. she used to object havin boyboy in de hse (coz our hse is pathetically small), but yeah.. she cried too.. wat an emotional family i haf got..
i juz cried again. coz my kor returned and he reli had gone to find boyboy as well.. are we juz tryin to get boyboy's forgiveness? how does he feel to be "abandoned" once again? how is he gng to Zzz at nite? our family can no longer be there for him anytime, everytime..
i thot i wldnt get so upset but still, my tears is flowin like a runnin tap..
i took a 2hrs time off today and went to visit him.. we walked ard.. yeah, w/ me chasin him.. and we strolled de garden nearby.. we sat at de big empty carpark.. he had his dinner.. and when it was time to leave, i seriously dun wana leave.. im so afraid of leavin him all alone by himself..
daddy said boyboy was searchin de whole place for him when he realizes he was left alone.. oh manz.. i cant imagine my family abandonin me.. it muz haf been a v painful feelin.. i wld be yearnin for home everynite..
i juz cant stop cryin.. is juz as painful..
~cheated ~
im feelin so tired frm all de mental torture im gettin today and my weepin makes me worse..
boyboy left our hse today. my kor cried, my da-sao cried.. i cried in de office, i believe daddy too.. and even my grandma. she used to object havin boyboy in de hse (coz our hse is pathetically small), but yeah.. she cried too.. wat an emotional family i haf got..
i juz cried again. coz my kor returned and he reli had gone to find boyboy as well.. are we juz tryin to get boyboy's forgiveness? how does he feel to be "abandoned" once again? how is he gng to Zzz at nite? our family can no longer be there for him anytime, everytime..
i thot i wldnt get so upset but still, my tears is flowin like a runnin tap..
i took a 2hrs time off today and went to visit him.. we walked ard.. yeah, w/ me chasin him.. and we strolled de garden nearby.. we sat at de big empty carpark.. he had his dinner.. and when it was time to leave, i seriously dun wana leave.. im so afraid of leavin him all alone by himself..
daddy said boyboy was searchin de whole place for him when he realizes he was left alone.. oh manz.. i cant imagine my family abandonin me.. it muz haf been a v painful feelin.. i wld be yearnin for home everynite..
i juz cant stop cryin.. is juz as painful..
[[ End of Chapter // tis sad day ]]
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Date Stamp:
Thursday, July 27, 2006
~boyboy.. my family dog ~
im currently in love w/ tis Dopod 585. haiz.. but my plan had been taken to sign for my mama's FREE hp.. im supposed to get a new fone (as and when i want) usin my kor's singtel plan instead (he promised so). but he had juz signed his for another hp, Samsung D520. it was a trade-in. gd deal and he volunteered to lend me tat fone for use. but i dun want. why shld i use a fone tat i dun fancy? tat day, i happened to see tis Dopod and it was almost an immediate love at 1st sight. BUT NOW~!? i cant get it at a cheap price of $138 w/ 2 yr plan. retail price is $418~! see de diff? i feel damn cheated now. ev1 is gettin their loved hps and i cant get mine. I FEEL FUCKIN CHEATED!! enuff said. im seriously, terribly, horribly upset~!
anyway, im in a fuckin damn mood today.. but well.. not coz of de hp thingy.. de real reason.. hmm.. i will wana keep it to myself.. :(
[[ End of Chapter // cheated ]]
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Date Stamp:
Sunday, July 23, 2006
i cldnt get myself to Zzz.. ahh.. muz be rottin too much today.. duhz..
was snappin pics of boyboy w/ my kor & daddy juz now.. hmm.. our dog is leavin us soon.. coz da-sao gng to gif birth.. de rabbits will hafta be shifted to de livin room.. so we haf no choice but to gif boyboy to kor's frenz..
his so-called name is in fact whisky la.. but i find it a rather "act expensive" name.. so i gave him a personal name instead.. daddy picked him up at a nearby coffeeshop last yr Oct.. coz well, he kept followin daddy.. i used to be so damn scared of him - jumpin up in my sleep, while brushin teeth, and even when havin dinner, i practically scream evday..
but dunno since when, i grow used to boyboy and hmm.. ya, i can ezily gif him a few kicks now.. hahaha! i also sayang him de ok.. lolz.. it was pretty amazin how he had changed as well. from a dog who urines & shit anywhere, eat his own shit, roamin in our hse aimlessly, bite off our things (such as my bag, our shoes, de newspapers, blanket & de list goes on..), he had definitely changed. we can ezily put our shoes on de floor at ease now, he noes where to do his biz.. he noes shit are not meant for consumation, he noes how to cuddle in our laps and always de 1st to welcome us back home by shakin his tail.. keke! oh yes, and he noes how to sit and shake hands w/ us!! i guess tazz de diff b/w a dog brought up in a home and on de streets.. and yes, he nv fails to bark at strangers.. gd excuse for ppl tryin to do door-to-door promoting.. haha! but strange thing is.. boyboy dun bark at other dogs. even when they started de barkin, he will juz stone at them.. hmm.. also another demure dog huhz.. lolz..
i always feel glad tat boyboy dun nida any extra groomin like hair trimmin or nail cuttin.. he alrdy looks very well-groomed!! and he dun get fleas on his fur ezily as well, which is why we can let him run in de grass w/o any worries.. but ermm, he runs too fast. lolz..
i always like dogs but there is tis phobia in me - they will bite me!! thanks to boyboy, i believe im much able to face dogs now and de phobia in me had been decreasin as he spends his days in our family..
but of coz, boyboy will never be able to replace weiwei's status in my heart.. weiwei will always be my dearest pet whom i respect.. perhaps coz i had lost him ba..
juz like daddy & kor.. and perhaps my whole family, we hope tat we will be reunited w/ boyboy 1 day.. of coz, as soon as possible.. lolz..
~什么感觉？ ~
i cldnt get myself to Zzz.. ahh.. muz be rottin too much today.. duhz..
was snappin pics of boyboy w/ my kor & daddy juz now.. hmm.. our dog is leavin us soon.. coz da-sao gng to gif birth.. de rabbits will hafta be shifted to de livin room.. so we haf no choice but to gif boyboy to kor's frenz..
his so-called name is in fact whisky la.. but i find it a rather "act expensive" name.. so i gave him a personal name instead.. daddy picked him up at a nearby coffeeshop last yr Oct.. coz well, he kept followin daddy.. i used to be so damn scared of him - jumpin up in my sleep, while brushin teeth, and even when havin dinner, i practically scream evday..
but dunno since when, i grow used to boyboy and hmm.. ya, i can ezily gif him a few kicks now.. hahaha! i also sayang him de ok.. lolz.. it was pretty amazin how he had changed as well. from a dog who urines & shit anywhere, eat his own shit, roamin in our hse aimlessly, bite off our things (such as my bag, our shoes, de newspapers, blanket & de list goes on..), he had definitely changed. we can ezily put our shoes on de floor at ease now, he noes where to do his biz.. he noes shit are not meant for consumation, he noes how to cuddle in our laps and always de 1st to welcome us back home by shakin his tail.. keke! oh yes, and he noes how to sit and shake hands w/ us!! i guess tazz de diff b/w a dog brought up in a home and on de streets.. and yes, he nv fails to bark at strangers.. gd excuse for ppl tryin to do door-to-door promoting.. haha! but strange thing is.. boyboy dun bark at other dogs. even when they started de barkin, he will juz stone at them.. hmm.. also another demure dog huhz.. lolz..
i always feel glad tat boyboy dun nida any extra groomin like hair trimmin or nail cuttin.. he alrdy looks very well-groomed!! and he dun get fleas on his fur ezily as well, which is why we can let him run in de grass w/o any worries.. but ermm, he runs too fast. lolz..
i always like dogs but there is tis phobia in me - they will bite me!! thanks to boyboy, i believe im much able to face dogs now and de phobia in me had been decreasin as he spends his days in our family..
but of coz, boyboy will never be able to replace weiwei's status in my heart.. weiwei will always be my dearest pet whom i respect.. perhaps coz i had lost him ba..
juz like daddy & kor.. and perhaps my whole family, we hope tat we will be reunited w/ boyboy 1 day.. of coz, as soon as possible.. lolz..
[[ End of Chapter // boyboy.. my family dog ]]
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Date Stamp:
Friday, July 21, 2006
曾经我觉得一对很令人羡慕的情侣，男的一定要高高，帅帅，有钱有车，然后和一个美美的女生，真幸福！和这样的男生在一起，应该就等于拥有全世界了吧？
如果男的不帅，我会想：“这种脸看得下去吗？”
如果男的穷，我又想：“这样哪里会幸福？”
如果男的矮，我会想：“这样不丢脸吗？”
肤浅~ 真肤浅！
不帅的男生，心地未必一样丑陋。穷人，只要有志气，有上进心，一定也会有成功的一天啊！不是很高？又怎样？真心地喜欢彼此不是更重要吗？
不知曾几何时，我渐渐了解“爱情”的真正定义。或许，不单单是了解吧。其实就在学着怎么去接受这样的定义。好像有点太迟了… 都22岁了才开始学！！
可以这么地说着，我绝对相信我的观点已经有所改变。只是，还不够。
我没办法和我觉得不顺眼的人在一起。
我更没办法和异族同胞在一起。
我没排斥穷人。我只是讨厌穷的感觉。谁想穷一辈子啊?! 但我也认命了，我觉得如果真嫁了，他应该不会是有钱人。哈哈！我是不是习惯了穷的感觉啊~?!
那天，我去了Pulau Ubin。很巧地一直看见一对情侣。起初，我逼我自己去相信他们只是姐弟或好朋友，因为男的居然矮了近半个头！但他们很自然的牵手，分享湖景，看动物。我觉得他们是幸福的。
不顾及别人的眼光，活在彼此的世界，才是真正的幸福吧！
~bloggin inspiration ~
曾经我觉得一对很令人羡慕的情侣，男的一定要高高，帅帅，有钱有车，然后和一个美美的女生，真幸福！和这样的男生在一起，应该就等于拥有全世界了吧？
如果男的不帅，我会想：“这种脸看得下去吗？”
如果男的穷，我又想：“这样哪里会幸福？”
如果男的矮，我会想：“这样不丢脸吗？”
肤浅~ 真肤浅！
不帅的男生，心地未必一样丑陋。穷人，只要有志气，有上进心，一定也会有成功的一天啊！不是很高？又怎样？真心地喜欢彼此不是更重要吗？
不知曾几何时，我渐渐了解“爱情”的真正定义。或许，不单单是了解吧。其实就在学着怎么去接受这样的定义。好像有点太迟了… 都22岁了才开始学！！
可以这么地说着，我绝对相信我的观点已经有所改变。只是，还不够。
我没办法和我觉得不顺眼的人在一起。
我更没办法和异族同胞在一起。
我没排斥穷人。我只是讨厌穷的感觉。谁想穷一辈子啊?! 但我也认命了，我觉得如果真嫁了，他应该不会是有钱人。哈哈！我是不是习惯了穷的感觉啊~?!
那天，我去了Pulau Ubin。很巧地一直看见一对情侣。起初，我逼我自己去相信他们只是姐弟或好朋友，因为男的居然矮了近半个头！但他们很自然的牵手，分享湖景，看动物。我觉得他们是幸福的。
不顾及别人的眼光，活在彼此的世界，才是真正的幸福吧！
[[ End of Chapter // 什么感觉？ ]]
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Date Stamp:
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
went for a damn short (maybe juz 5mins) sunbathin juz now, juz at de balcony near my office..
de sun rays practically warms me up in a few seconds and instantly dries up my tears which were supposed to fall..
havin fall sick is such vulnerable feelin.. told my colleague tat i wana eat frm a stall behind our office.. she said no.. and i began to feel so terrible i wana start cryin.. SO DAMN WEAK!! cant stand myself~
as i sat alone at de balcony.. i come to realize.. de sky is juz like us..
when it gets upset, it rains.
when it gets angry, it comes w/ lightnin & thunders.
when it feels strong & happy, it shines on us brightly.
realize tat we are afraid of lightnin & thunders? yupz, exactly de same as some1 flarin their temper at us.
weird thing is.. why do we blame de sky when it gets upset? and why do we hide away frm its happiness?
are we reli tat self-centred as to think for ourselves only? reckon so. we dun share de tears w/ sky, we dun bask in her happiness..
wat m i crappin abt..
~tis & tat ~
went for a damn short (maybe juz 5mins) sunbathin juz now, juz at de balcony near my office..
de sun rays practically warms me up in a few seconds and instantly dries up my tears which were supposed to fall..
havin fall sick is such vulnerable feelin.. told my colleague tat i wana eat frm a stall behind our office.. she said no.. and i began to feel so terrible i wana start cryin.. SO DAMN WEAK!! cant stand myself~
as i sat alone at de balcony.. i come to realize.. de sky is juz like us..
when it gets upset, it rains.
when it gets angry, it comes w/ lightnin & thunders.
when it feels strong & happy, it shines on us brightly.
realize tat we are afraid of lightnin & thunders? yupz, exactly de same as some1 flarin their temper at us.
weird thing is.. why do we blame de sky when it gets upset? and why do we hide away frm its happiness?
are we reli tat self-centred as to think for ourselves only? reckon so. we dun share de tears w/ sky, we dun bask in her happiness..
wat m i crappin abt..
[[ End of Chapter // bloggin inspiration ]]
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Date Stamp:
Thursday, July 06, 2006
it feels shiok to be in ntuc.. haha! once again, i feel like becomin a hsewife~ *lolZ*
w/ pimples infestin my face.. an idea suddenly popped into my mind.
i wana start drinkin fruit + veggie juices!! it will help de ba~~
SO..
i alighted at Bishan J8 yest & bought a Juice Extractor for S$69/- at Best Connections & then i proceed to the Basement for my ingredients~!! i bought baby carrots, baby tomatoes, celery, green apples, guava, cucumber.. kinda stressed when i was choosin de green apples & cucumber. now, i noe why mamas go to mkt early in de mornie.. not kiasu.. they juz wana gif themselves more choices and of coz, fresh 1s.. it definitely feels sore when u cant get those tazz at least, decent lookin.. *lolZ* i bought only 3 green apples even though de BIG~ label writes " 5 for $.145 / 35cts each" i cld haf ezily get 2 more for juz 40cts more.. but.. no decent 1s la~ so i gave up. and.. i almost bought Chinese Leeks instead of Celery!! they look alike, like brother & sista. hahaha!
i had carrots + tomatoes juice yest & cucumber juice for mask. today shld haf celery + green apple. mask? still cucumber lor.. cannot waste ma.. hehe!
** it may not be hurtin w0rds, but de attitude is hurtin enuff.. **
~havin frenz is gd for health ~
it feels shiok to be in ntuc.. haha! once again, i feel like becomin a hsewife~ *lolZ*
w/ pimples infestin my face.. an idea suddenly popped into my mind.
i wana start drinkin fruit + veggie juices!! it will help de ba~~
SO..
i alighted at Bishan J8 yest & bought a Juice Extractor for S$69/- at Best Connections & then i proceed to the Basement for my ingredients~!! i bought baby carrots, baby tomatoes, celery, green apples, guava, cucumber.. kinda stressed when i was choosin de green apples & cucumber. now, i noe why mamas go to mkt early in de mornie.. not kiasu.. they juz wana gif themselves more choices and of coz, fresh 1s.. it definitely feels sore when u cant get those tazz at least, decent lookin.. *lolZ* i bought only 3 green apples even though de BIG~ label writes " 5 for $.145 / 35cts each" i cld haf ezily get 2 more for juz 40cts more.. but.. no decent 1s la~ so i gave up. and.. i almost bought Chinese Leeks instead of Celery!! they look alike, like brother & sista. hahaha!
i had carrots + tomatoes juice yest & cucumber juice for mask. today shld haf celery + green apple. mask? still cucumber lor.. cannot waste ma.. hehe!
** it may not be hurtin w0rds, but de attitude is hurtin enuff.. **
[[ End of Chapter // tis & tat ]]
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Date Stamp:
Monday, July 03, 2006
i hafta admit, i will get upset over frenz.. and maybe i upset my frenz at times too.. duhz~ no1 is perfect..
went cyclin w/ fang on Saturday. it was a reli last min decision.. ahh~ we wana go canoe at 1st but seriously haf no idea where we can find places tat provide rental.. so to avoid gettin disappointed.. we went for cyclin instead.. i enjoyed myself though it was juz de 2 of us.. cyclin is gd for health!! :)
then we settle for dinner at The Waffle Shop. oh man, plz dun go there. NOT NICE DE~! waste our $$~ we bought a drink & settled ourselves at a shelter facin de sea b4 we began our chattin.. i felt so recharged, u noe~! hahaha! dunno why but it always feels gd to tok to some1 who shares "chemistry".. keke! fang said im lucky, i met many ppl who help me in my life at different intervals.. ahh~ i also met baddies de wor.. but weighin out both, i think im lucky too.. lolz.. and now tat fang got me (& i got her too), i hope she will feel lucky too.. and get luckier~!! ahh~ dun i sound like some lesbians out there? *faintZ*
havin frenz is gd for health.
im meetin her & some of my pri sch frenz today.. hopefully it turns out nice~ :p
** weepin at nite is a cold feelin.. i feel as though ev1 can hear me but de fact is no1 noes.. **
i hafta admit, i will get upset over frenz.. and maybe i upset my frenz at times too.. duhz~ no1 is perfect..
went cyclin w/ fang on Saturday. it was a reli last min decision.. ahh~ we wana go canoe at 1st but seriously haf no idea where we can find places tat provide rental.. so to avoid gettin disappointed.. we went for cyclin instead.. i enjoyed myself though it was juz de 2 of us.. cyclin is gd for health!! :)
then we settle for dinner at The Waffle Shop. oh man, plz dun go there. NOT NICE DE~! waste our $$~ we bought a drink & settled ourselves at a shelter facin de sea b4 we began our chattin.. i felt so recharged, u noe~! hahaha! dunno why but it always feels gd to tok to some1 who shares "chemistry".. keke! fang said im lucky, i met many ppl who help me in my life at different intervals.. ahh~ i also met baddies de wor.. but weighin out both, i think im lucky too.. lolz.. and now tat fang got me (& i got her too), i hope she will feel lucky too.. and get luckier~!! ahh~ dun i sound like some lesbians out there? *faintZ*
havin frenz is gd for health.
im meetin her & some of my pri sch frenz today.. hopefully it turns out nice~ :p
** weepin at nite is a cold feelin.. i feel as though ev1 can hear me but de fact is no1 noes.. **
[[ End of Chapter // havin frenz is gd for health ]]