[[ End of Chapter // 我生病了 ]]

Date Stamp: Tuesday, October 14, 2008


guess what?

i found myself a part time job. is amazing how it came knocking at my door when i least expected it. i was searching for one quite sometimes back but is heartbreaking that they could not accomodate to my schedule (weekends ONLY).

anyway, i was not really interviewed (so you can sense how badly they are in need of staff). the manager simply asked for my schedule, slotted me into their roster and toured me round their restaurant.

sadly, is ironic to find me, a jap-disliker to be working in a jap restaurant.




their timing are quite flexible, since they are in need of staffs..
so hurry and have a walk in interview now!! hehe!

finally, i am starting to realize 1 of the top to-do tasks in my list, or rather, i only have 2 things on mind which i want to get myself into.

1) get a part time job and keep my weekends busy.
2) take up dancing lessons so as to better coordinate my hands and legs *lolZ*

my plans dont end just there. well, thinking of taking up my degree next year when i have saved enough (is going to take a SUPER LONG time. any sponsors? *lolZ*)..

but i guess before i start to get myself into studying again, i will most probably have a switch of job. i seriously dont like my job in this current company. i always feel that it is leading me to nowhere even though my boss tried assuring me of the career advancement that they have for me. please go and groom someone else~~

oh ya, not forgetting to update that my dearest ex-company tried getting me back to start up a new department doing local recruitments. i pondered for DAYS~~ before deciding not to go back. it is a GODDAMN difficult decision to make coz i seriously like it there but due a somewhat commitment/promise i made to my current company, i cant return. well, i simply cant bring myself to break a promise. to me, a promise is a promise and should never be broken. i will always try my best to make good of what i have promised. that is why you seldom find me making promises, even on daily matters. haha! that's me and it is so difficult to overcome this principle since i deem it as very important. i am not doing what i feel i owe to my current company but more like fulfilling a promise. people in my current company are nice to me; they take care of me. so well.. i seriously hope people out there respect my decision and support what i had decided.

i must admit that i was in very much a dilemma then. one moment i decided to stay, the next moment i decided to leave. my mind swayed so much that i got a very bad headache for those few days. and when i eventually made a decision, i felt a sense of relief, or rather i thought there is a sense of relief. i woke up the next day, feeling upset and even wept in the bus on my way to work. my mood was totally KILLED at the decision i made. then i realized, perhaps this is not a happy decision but i just have to abide to it.

i believe that if it is meant to be.. it will return to me eventually :)


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