我是一个不善表达的巫婆
平时说话大剌剌
所以让人以为我是个什么都说的人
其实，越在乎的，我越不懂怎么表达
光临我的心境世界，欢迎多多了解我 ^_^
Witch -> Jiawei -> Queen -> Elmer ->
skin: sixseven
My Nonsensical Cousins *lolZ*
KRISTY ~da sao
ELIZ ~SHR colleague
JIAWEI ~poly
FELICIA Chin
ELVIN Ng
NAT Ho
SUN YanZi
since Mar 2005
[2011]
Jan.11
Feb.11
Mar.11
Princess -> Yong Jin -> Fairy
对于以下我想说的，最近的感触特别深。
岁月是否流失了你原来的个性？
环境是否改变了你原本喜欢的自己？
是不是周遭的压力让你忘了原有的自己？
曾经，你轻易拥有的快乐，无意的笑容，甚至单纯的善良 - 它们是不是一件一件地离你而去？
环境的改变，我们无法阻挡。
但，怎么面对着，是我们可以操控的吧。
你当然可以选择低头，屈服于环境。
所以，就算你从此不再快乐，不再热于助人，不再是众人所认识的你，我也只能在一旁耸耸肩，觉得这一切都是你自找的。我好邪恶哦~！！:x
可能是因为我不认同你的做法吧~
可能是因为我是一个不善于改变的人吧~
当你一一列出自己帮我们做了很多事时，那是你觉得的吧？
我们不也帮了你们很多吗？难道你拿高薪，只是为了督促我们吗？
人啊~ 永远觉得自己很伟大。我也包括在内；老觉得我常常因为不计较，所以做的永远比较多。只是，我薪水还蛮低的。~(>_<)~ 当你从今以后什么都分得很清楚时，我还是会帮你。 虽然我不会反驳，更不会对你大小声 ~ 但对不起了，本小姐的能力会变得很有限。 如果是从前的我，管你是什么大便，我一概不理，勇敢发飙！ 哪怕惹得全身大便，我也会很开心。。毕竟，我是那么的小心眼，把报仇看得比自己还重要。哈哈！但我不会这样对你，因为我还是把你当朋友。 所以，当你觉得迷惑还是不开心时，请想想。。当初的自己，当初的原因。 如果当初可以，现在一定也可以；努力多一点点，就什么都没问题了。
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once again, is my mthly food review here.. *lolZ*
tis time, Princess brought us to tis korean restaurant.. and ta-da~!! Queen came as well, bringin King along. such a rare chance sia.. *lolZ*
their menu.. hmm.. has it been a common practice for me to shoot their menu as de 1st item..? *lolZ* oh ya, their chopsticks so flat!! reli korean style la.. it simply makes our dinin more challengin.. *lolZ*so, we placed our order.. and in de meantime, we got elmer to take a closer look on his belated present.. wahaha! btw, his bday is in Feb. wahahahha! :x
well, it seem like elmer is pretty pleased w/ his present. anythin to do w/ Stitch, he will like it. *lolZ*
we got him to wear them.. and he actually wore them all de way to Lene's hse~ *lolZ* anyway it fits~~!! coz i alrdy asked him for his shoe size.. if it dun, im gng to burn down tat shop can~~? *lolZ*
1st came their side dishes. dun be surprised if u go korean restaurant. coz as heard frm xiujun and jiawei, korean has more side dishes than their main dish. hehe! anyway, other than de transparent dunno-wat on de left and tat eggplant, de rest still not bad.. hehe..
im tryin to take a pic which requires gd angle capturin but JIAWEI~! u siam simi?? *lolZ*
tazz more like it! MAY WE PRESENT~~ de newly wed couple!! ^^ hahahah!!
as usual, me and Princess.. my darlingz.. haha! tazz my quite new hairstyle.. muahahaha!! i like it alot can~? so ez to tidy sia.. and is lookin tidy rite?? *nod her own head*
de normal real couple - King & Queen~! juz wazz King lookin at..?? so hungry ahh?? *lolZ*
My main~ Beef soup w/ rice.. anyway, de soup is reli sweet and it tastes like those korean stall i ate in foodcourt..
Elmer's main~ sambal fish w/ rice.. hmm.. de taste is alrite and ermm.. i juz saw sth exactly de same at Yoshinoya today.. i wondered if they taste de same~ O.o
Queen's main~ Kimchi soup w/ rice.. ok la.. not bad not bad.. though de presentation looks like milestrone soup.. haha!
Princess' main (King had an order of de same) ~ cold wheat noodle.. can u spot de 3 cube of ice inside?? *lolZ* see~ i told u is COLD.. haha!
squid rice.. ahahaha!! pardon me for all de poor namings la~~ i cant rem their names and u dun expect me to copy down their names for bloggin rite.. im not doin homewrk here lehz~~~ anyway, i think tis tastes pretty nice! hehe!
our own side dish.. BBQ pork belly~! look at de darn portion~ cost $18 lehz!! i dun find it fattenin at all la.. and it taste nice when u wrap w/ lettuce.. BUT~ exp lor..
tis is de other side dish we ordered. supposed to haf rice cake, sweet potatoes and chicken flavored w/ kim chi.. but then, i think is not seasoned enuff coz de flavor juz didnt get into de food. de rice cake is quite Q~ but only a few pieces.. de portion is quite small.. maybe coz 6 of us sharin? hmm..
overall rating? hmm.. for myself to rate.. i think.. maybe 5/10? so-so lor.. at least they dun haf a toilet tat make me dizzy, a disappointin toilet roll.. and.. ooops, dun be mistaken.. im not critercizin Bosses here~ :X
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was my 1st day in sch yest..
my yoz-bro asked me if im feelin excited b4 tat.. my reply was, "nope. maybe when i get there, i will.. but then again, i dun think so."
i reli dun see any pt for me to get excited.. haha! when i 1st stepped into NYP, i wasnt feelin excited too.. so why de big fuss now? perhaps im feelin more isolated than excited then.
lucky for me, yanying is there to accompany me now..
so ya.. tazz my 1st day in school.. *lolZ*
btw, tis is for recordin purpose only..
i saw weiwei's frenz, Calvin.. ya~ tat grp de Calvin on 16 Apr 2007 when i was on my way home.. *lolZ*
then i saw jiun's fiancee on 17 Apr mornie on my way to wrk..
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i muz admit, i do get affected by nitemares ezily.
nth can be more frightening that dreamin de deaths of ur loved ones, and worse, urself.
im always dreamin de deaths of livin ppl ard me and so many times, my own death.
tis time, i almost died. lucky i didnt.
i recalled tellin my aunt (due to those ancestors' hierarchy, she was an aunt), tat things wld go well for me since i managed to escape death. but it was de dream (yeah, dreams within dreams) which she had tat actually dampened my mood.
she dreamt tat my hse dog, boyboy, was offerin(note: it wasnt "burning") those incense papers to me as i laid still on de floor. but i refused to take it. he insisted giving me those "papers" and everyone thot i will die. wat kinda hell.. ev1 thinks im sure to die.. alrite, i actually so-called offended a big underworld boss in my nitemare, so ev1 thinks i wont be able to escape de clutches of death..
so tat aunt was pretty shocked tat i didnt.. u noe.. ermm.. died..
i rem strugglin so hard for survival but ev1 thinks it was plain futile.
i ran thru carparks, i hid in ppl's hses, i climbed beyond windows, i was so exhausted i simply cldnt experience de simpleness of life.
it was neither adventurous nor challenging.
when my alarm rang, i rejected de thot of wakin up.. coz i wanted very badly to put a nice ending to tis nitemare.
I FAILED.
so today, im not feelin gd~ :'(
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Mama told me.. when i was young, i ONLY wore those kok-kok shoes (also known as heeled shoes).. i wore dresses most of de time, if not skirts. i dun go for shorts, jeans, etc..
i was kinda surprised how much i change.
frm some1 so gerly to a perrrfect tomboy. *lolZ*
Mama told me.. when i was young, i had very little interactions w/ ppl.. usually, i dun gif a hoot to ppl ard me..
i was again surprised..
coz as u can see.. i can blabber tonnes of nonsense to ppl ard me now.. (-_-")
Mama told me.. when i was young, i dun shriek, i dun laugh loudly, i dun yell/scream at ppl.. in short, u can barely hear me.. coz either i dun tok or i tok very softly.
WHAT DE HELL~
wazz happenin to me again??
most of de time, im deafening ppl ard me now~~ wahahaha!
and then, i wonder.. wat change me?
is such a change good or bad?? *rub her chin*
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人生似乎有太多的无奈，令我们难以招架。
曾经的错，真的就是改过自新的绊脚石吗？
所谓 《人生如戏，戏如人生》，真的一点都不是唬我们的。
努力的改过，却被现实打败。
这样的无奈，连旁人看了也心酸。
我讨厌这样的无奈。
我更讨厌知道这样的无奈。
常常，我会觉得是别人不够努力，所以才会争取不到很多东西，因而也失去很多。
天意难违，我感同身受。
原来很多时候，不是努力就会有成果的。
原来很多时候，命运需要还有多一点点的好运。
原来很多时候，勉励都没用。
看到心爱的人和别人结婚，那是什么感觉？
想认真读书却发现自己得了病，那是什么感觉？
好好地爱着一个人最后换来背叛，那是什么感觉？
心痛之后，只剩下无奈。。