witch words
我是一个不善表达的巫婆
平时说话大剌剌
所以让人以为我是个什么都说的人
其实，越在乎的，我越不懂怎么表达
光临我的心境世界，欢迎多多了解我 ^_^
my faves
Witch -> Jiawei -> Queen -> Elmer ->
skin: sixseven
de frame // 27 Oct
My Nonsensical Cousins *lolZ*
witchology
beyond my world
KRISTY ~da sao
ELIZ ~SHR colleague
JIAWEI ~poly
starS world
FELICIA Chin
ELVIN Ng
NAT Ho
SUN YanZi
my memories
since Mar 2005
[2011]
Jan.11
Feb.11
Mar.11
chain of sequence
Princess -> Yong Jin -> Fairy
special thanks
~ 我很自私噢 ~
Date Stamp:
Friday, August 25, 2006
我想回到过去。回到我每天以伪装过日子的生活。
不是虚伪的伪装，而是藏起自己的悲，假装开心的我。
至少我觉得… 那样的我，比较开心。
藏着藏着… 会有几个小时，我忘了我在假装。
不是说现在的我根本不会，我还是会那样.. 但是不是自己一个人的时间多了，就没需要再装，所以.. 开始不开心？原本，我离愁越来越远。喜怒哀乐，喜和乐变多了。感激不尽，这样的我… 会越来越乐观。因为我渐渐觉得美丽人生变得越来越美。不是有谁住进我心里，若有人住了进去，我就不可能会开心，不可能觉得这人生有多美。我还不想有谁来影响我的生活…
我是自私的。我一直都在努力地保护自己。
我不想身边的人因为我而担心，这样只会令我更担心自己。
所以，我就会拼命地不让身边的人担心。只有这样，我可以安心的疗伤。但心中的畏惧，丝毫没减。当我压抑的畏惧连自己都没办法负荷时，我又会令我身边的人开始担心。这样没完没了，很累。
曾经我为了放下一个人，我领悟到，如果我要忘记他，我必须让我身边的人都忘了他的存在。所以就算有人问起，我也一笑置之。夜里的抽泣，反复的回忆，在时间的步伐下，我渐渐放下了，但始终忘不了。
所以，现在只要让我身边的人放心，忘了我的不一样，我相信我是可以过着一般人的生活。
所以，我没说.. 也不想告诉任何人，
为什么今天我哭了，到底发生什么事，到底在想些什么。
就当是我心情不好吧…
~finally after 2 LONG WAITIN wks.. ~
我想回到过去。回到我每天以伪装过日子的生活。
不是虚伪的伪装，而是藏起自己的悲，假装开心的我。
至少我觉得… 那样的我，比较开心。
藏着藏着… 会有几个小时，我忘了我在假装。
不是说现在的我根本不会，我还是会那样.. 但是不是自己一个人的时间多了，就没需要再装，所以.. 开始不开心？原本，我离愁越来越远。喜怒哀乐，喜和乐变多了。感激不尽，这样的我… 会越来越乐观。因为我渐渐觉得美丽人生变得越来越美。不是有谁住进我心里，若有人住了进去，我就不可能会开心，不可能觉得这人生有多美。我还不想有谁来影响我的生活…
我是自私的。我一直都在努力地保护自己。
我不想身边的人因为我而担心，这样只会令我更担心自己。
所以，我就会拼命地不让身边的人担心。只有这样，我可以安心的疗伤。但心中的畏惧，丝毫没减。当我压抑的畏惧连自己都没办法负荷时，我又会令我身边的人开始担心。这样没完没了，很累。
曾经我为了放下一个人，我领悟到，如果我要忘记他，我必须让我身边的人都忘了他的存在。所以就算有人问起，我也一笑置之。夜里的抽泣，反复的回忆，在时间的步伐下，我渐渐放下了，但始终忘不了。
所以，现在只要让我身边的人放心，忘了我的不一样，我相信我是可以过着一般人的生活。
所以，我没说.. 也不想告诉任何人，
为什么今天我哭了，到底发生什么事，到底在想些什么。
就当是我心情不好吧…
[[ End of Chapter // 我很自私噢 ]]
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Date Stamp:
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
yes yes im back at wrk alrdy..
i may be lookin normal alrdy (only thing is w/ my specs on 24/7) but ya, as i had always mentioned.. guess is only ME who noes de diff..
seriously ahh.. after half day at wrk, im startin to get giddy spells. yaya, then u ask why din i rest but start bloggin instead? damn me. haha! i think my giddiness is still manageable la. afterall, it had been ages since i last blogged. not to worry, im takin rest on and off as im bloggin..
i dunno if i will recover back to de normal me.. i mean, if i contd to be sufferin blurness of my left eye, my rite eye will contd strainin and i will contd feelin giddy now and then.. but well, is alrdy a big relief tat im not gng blind nor partially blind. as for de rest, i will juz hope for de best. ^_^
no more contact lens for me now and foreva.. so i guess is time to start a collection of specs..!! hurhur.. but not now, not in sep.. coz i will be still v broke.
~hospitalised ~
yes yes im back at wrk alrdy..
i may be lookin normal alrdy (only thing is w/ my specs on 24/7) but ya, as i had always mentioned.. guess is only ME who noes de diff..
seriously ahh.. after half day at wrk, im startin to get giddy spells. yaya, then u ask why din i rest but start bloggin instead? damn me. haha! i think my giddiness is still manageable la. afterall, it had been ages since i last blogged. not to worry, im takin rest on and off as im bloggin..
i dunno if i will recover back to de normal me.. i mean, if i contd to be sufferin blurness of my left eye, my rite eye will contd strainin and i will contd feelin giddy now and then.. but well, is alrdy a big relief tat im not gng blind nor partially blind. as for de rest, i will juz hope for de best. ^_^
no more contact lens for me now and foreva.. so i guess is time to start a collection of specs..!! hurhur.. but not now, not in sep.. coz i will be still v broke.
[[ End of Chapter // finally after 2 LONG WAITIN wks.. ]]
~
Date Stamp:
Saturday, August 12, 2006
yupz, i haf been hospitalized since 07 aug till 11 aug..
hospital stay is not nice.. food not nice plus, i cant go anywhere coz im sufferin frm eye ulcer..
but thz to all my frenz who had visited me.. sparin me frm boredom.. lolz..
guess i dun nida say much here.. coz well, if u noe me.. u shld be aware of my situation.. if u dun, i welcome u to ask me.. ermm.. nono.. not welcome.. i mean.. u can ask me but im DEFINITELY not obliged to ans u..
1 most impt factor why im not postin any further details here is..
i can restrict wateva information i want to ppl i dun wish to say much.. coz well, bein hospitalized is definitely not anythin to be proud of and i nid no hypocrites to ask me thru msn.. ok, actually i mean only 1 pax who might read my blog.. u shld haf got my "hint" alrdy..
oh, btw.. needless to ask, i haf blocked & deleted u in my MSN.
so DUN BOTHER. thanks.
yupz, i haf been hospitalized since 07 aug till 11 aug..
hospital stay is not nice.. food not nice plus, i cant go anywhere coz im sufferin frm eye ulcer..
but thz to all my frenz who had visited me.. sparin me frm boredom.. lolz..
guess i dun nida say much here.. coz well, if u noe me.. u shld be aware of my situation.. if u dun, i welcome u to ask me.. ermm.. nono.. not welcome.. i mean.. u can ask me but im DEFINITELY not obliged to ans u..
1 most impt factor why im not postin any further details here is..
i can restrict wateva information i want to ppl i dun wish to say much.. coz well, bein hospitalized is definitely not anythin to be proud of and i nid no hypocrites to ask me thru msn.. ok, actually i mean only 1 pax who might read my blog.. u shld haf got my "hint" alrdy..
oh, btw.. needless to ask, i haf blocked & deleted u in my MSN.
so DUN BOTHER. thanks.
[[ End of Chapter // hospitalised ]]