witch words

我是一个不善表达的巫婆
平时说话大剌剌
所以让人以为我是个什么都说的人
其实,越在乎的,我越不懂怎么表达
光临我的心境世界,欢迎多多了解我 ^_^

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de frame // 27 Oct


My Nonsensical Cousins *lolZ*

witchology

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beyond my world


KRISTY ~da sao
ELIZ ~SHR colleague
JIAWEI ~poly

starS world


FELICIA Chin
ELVIN Ng
NAT Ho
SUN YanZi

my memories


since Mar 2005

[2011]
Jan.11
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chain of sequence

Witch -> Jiawei -> Queen -> Elmer ->
Princess -> Yong Jin -> Fairy

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skin: sixseven

~ at my verge ~

Date Stamp: Friday, September 30, 2005


im seriously gng to brk down soon.. i think im suffering frm mental stress now.. stressin myself over many things and i realize ya.. things r juz not pickin up for me.. hopefully it will get beta.. evday im thinkin abt so many "wat if" until i kinda neglect my ACTUAL job in office.

sori noel. reli.. im v sori.. haiz.. i still prove myself to be incapable of handling things w/o u.. im juz not in a gd state of mind to think now.. so haiz.. im reli sori. like all i had told u earlier.. i hope u will understand but hmm.. i din reli explain anyway.. coz ermm.. cannot explain.. hahaha! .. so ya.. things cork up. hopefully evthin goes fine for me tml.. arghz.. i reli muz pray so damn hard..

i feel so much like cryin tat yest on my way hm.. even in de train, i felt like im gng to burst into tears soon.. but i ctrl. NO WAY am i gonna cry in de public.. is juz so weak!! shed tears in front of so many strangers.. is juz NOT me..

i think im gng to collapse soon. i nid a brk. i nid an escape.. wrkload is gng to be crashin my life when tat f'in aunty simply dump de whole f'in shit to me and still ask me for a deadline!! wat de f'.. she thinks is ez huhz~!! arghz~!! and not only my own office wrkload.. haiz.. im not even worth S$3.50.. another wrkload w/o salary.. is gng to crash my life THOROUGHLY..

to all those who r readin my blog, if any, plz pray for me.. thanks ya..

suddenly feel tat tis entry is kinda upsettin.. so NOT me hor~~ *lolZ*


[[ End of Chapter // at my verge ]]

~ oh.. tired.. ~

Date Stamp: Thursday, September 29, 2005


time now 8:39am.. oh damn.. im so freakin tired sia.. now at ITE.. hmm.. i woke up late today.. supposed to reach at 8am.. *lolZ* but nvm la.. i say nvm means nvm ok.. shh.. lolz

ITE de pc not bad huhz.. they also dun haf firewalls, can login to MSN, somemore got de latest version alrdy installed..!! wOo.. and can blog also.. wAhh.. reli nice!! heh..

gng for lene bday party tis comin sat. her 21st. heh.. xiujun, sharon and me will be gng to her hse at 2pm to help out 1st.. but suddenly.. received a sms frm thomas yest. he asked if me and my gang free on sat to attend his commissionin. btw, wazz commissionin huhz~!!? he din answered me wor.. anyway, im not free ahz.. maybe after tat, BUT.. hmm.. *still thinkin* is rare of thomas to ask, so i thot we shld show some appreciatn.. see how la hor..

and then ya.. to those whois readin tis blog, IF ANY, ermm.. startin frm Oct 8 i wont be free le.. coz haiz.. lene.. u noe wat la hor.. we r gng to xiang yi wei ming alrdy. well, alrdy dun harbor any thot tat frenz A will appreciate, so ya.. juz get it done and over w/~!

happy wkend to all.. im sure to enjoy mine.. *lolZ*
de start of 8 Oct is de start of nitemare.. actually im alrdy quite stressed out by tis oncomin nitemare.. arghz~!!!


[[ End of Chapter // oh.. tired.. ]]

~ WEEKEND~!~!! ~

Date Stamp: Saturday, September 17, 2005


w0hoo~! it's Saturday today, Sunday tml~~ *lolZ*

gng for a super mini bbq session later w/ huiling, leti & leeli.. to celebrate huiling's belated bday actually. another lil gatherin for de gang of 4.. hope huiling will like de present we prepared & bought for her~!! heh..

and tml is Sunday~! mama said we will nida go to grandma's hse early coz tml is her daddy's death anniversary. so can expect quite a great deal of gd food.. heh.. but hmm.. suddenly i feel like eatin cake.. *lolZ* not mooncake ok~~ my pimples is brkin out like hell~~ duhZz..

peaceful weekend.. geeZ~ dun wana think abt anythin alrdy.. thinkin for many many days.. think until i wana faint.. if u reli noe me in real, u will noe im not those kinda pax who will abandon frenz when they nid my help. if i say i will help, there is no way i will EAT BACK my words, at any pt of time. if u wana think it otherwise.. too bad, sori then.. i dunno wat i can do to change ur views of me.. =
byebye~~


[[ End of Chapter // WEEKEND~!~!! ]]

~ blue & distracted ~

Date Stamp: Tuesday, September 13, 2005


my title says it all, unless u dun bother to read de title.

and i wana rumble on and on..

im blue.. damn blue.. so blue.. very blue..

im distracted.. very distracted.. so distracted.. damn distracted..

today not gng for tuition, i postponed it to tml.. coz sth cropped up..

any1 cares abt me??? other than Noel, ah bu Cheryl and sotong.. any1 else~!?!??!?!

MSN reduces de furthest dist.. SO WAT~!?

NOBODY CARES ABT ME, ANYWAY~

FORGET IT!

im feelin so yuCkS~! (>_<)




[[ End of Chapter // blue & distracted ]]

~ me, chocolates & my Saturday ~

Date Stamp: Saturday, September 10, 2005


*yawnZ*
i juz woke up but darn.. still not enuff Zzz.. i had only Zzzed for 2hrs.. woke up by my 2nd aunt who kept tellin me tat my kor is lookin for me (fone).. but when i called back, ermm.. i think i dialled wrongly.. coz i was still in sleepin mode, and it was a ger who picked up de call.

ger:hello?
me: (tryin to be awake and thinkin hard wat num i dialled) desmond?
ger: hello?

*kap*
and i juz hung up de fone.. no pt wat.. i dun even noe if i dialled correctly.

wat a Saturday.. i wana Zzz and Zzz coz i haf my accumulated insomnia.
oh nono.. not insomnia. cheryl and elynn suffered frm insomnia, im de 1 havin nitemares.. *lolZ*
oh ya~~~ sth to feel so damn happy abt..~!! ah pui bought medicine dark chocos for US..!! wahh.. 72% cocoa.. guess means 72% bitter? aye.. but it tastes.. hmm.. dry.. not bitter. i also dunno how to say.. but definitely nice~!! heh.. well, who will say FREE things r NOT nice? *lolZ* ah pui said i always put de chocolates in my own drawer, so selfish..

fine.

*dumped those dark chocos into de fridge*

im not selfish wat.. juz tat im lazy.. walkin to de pantry many many times for some chocolates can be quite tirin, u noe.. drawer is juz a slip away, ta-da~!! chocolates~!! *yum yum* but alas, i alrdy dumped de chocos into de fridge. *pout*

but my throat is not feelin well.. i mean, since a few mths ago, it is not well.. now, it gets worse. i feel quite miserable and tokin reli requires more strength.. even though my voice still sounds de same.. *lolZ* all-year-round sore throat voice.. hahaha!

*a-hem* x 10
ok, bye~
wat an abrupt departure. *lolZ*
WAIT~!!!~!!!
i hvnt thanks ah pui for de medicine chocolates..
and ya, thanks Noel for de MNG top!! hahaha! when i saw a MNG paper bag on my desk, i thot is chocolates.. hahaha! im craZy~ and i was reli shocked tat is a top! i mean.. chocolates and top, top seem more exp.. expensive gift outta de blue~!! alamak.. till now, i still find it quite shockin. *lolZ*


[[ End of Chapter // me, chocolates & my Saturday ]]

~ today is a nice day ~

Date Stamp: Tuesday, September 06, 2005


yupz, im at hm again.
even though i din do much wrk in office today.. im SO BZZZ~~ msn-in.. *lolZ* anyway, not reli bz w/ MSN but well, can MSN VERY OPENLY is a relief to me, coz im those retarded freak who has no sense of alertness towards my surroundin.. yeah yeah~ tat f**kin hippo by de name of NATASHA is on mc~!! hohoho!! yeah yeah~~ im not happy at de fact tat she is sick, u noe.. not tat cruel. im juz feelin happy for myself tat SHE IS NOT AROUND~ can breathe in some air of freedom.. yeah~ office hvnt been in such light moods.. muahahaha! :x
can she juz leave sanford alone? ahhh.. she wont.. plz pity us.

*BIG~ wave at Noel*
when u are readin tis entry, i think im sufferin at ITE lor.. nowhere is like sanford.. *s0bs0b* i miss you all so badly~!! *lolZ*

de ITE registratn is drivin me crazy.. coz i NEED SLEEP~!!!! on Mon, i woke up at 6am.. and guess wat? i Zzzed at 3am on Sunday nite, or shld i say is a Monday super duper early mornie when i fell aZzz.. ahhh.. seriously tired. but still, im alrdy tryin v hard to keep my mood positive then. and today in office, im so HIGH~~ hahahaha! coz no1 spyin on me.. lalalalllaaaa~~

sometimes, it is juz so hard to maintain urself in gd mood. but well, im glad tat at least for now, i dun feel at all like eruptin. may it be destructive to others, for eg. screamin/yellin/scoldin ppl.. or destructive to myself. yaya, all i can do is cry la.. but hoho~ been mths since i last dropped tears. oh nono.. not reli many mths actually.. alamak. sia suay~ but anyway, alamak.. wat i wana say huhz? i always start w/ "anyway".. ahhh.. i got so much to type but.. forget it.

bye la.. tml is gng to be a long day.. oh no.. scorchin sun.. here i come.. ='(
oh ya.. some1 juz complained tat my entry on weiwei is long~ longer than ever i wrote abt myself. BUT, did i ever do a self intro of myself b4? *lolZ*


[[ End of Chapter // today is a nice day ]]

~ im AT HOME ~

Date Stamp: Saturday, September 03, 2005


1st time for me to blog at hm.. coz my pc is so terok.. im seriously wonder if it will collapse b4 i finish tis entry.. *lolZ* im usin it in "safe mode with networking".. pro huhz? *lolZ* de font so damn BIG~~ errkk..

went shoppin w/ wu jie and xiujun juz now. din buy much though.. ahhh.. i seriously nida update my wardrobe!! and after shoppin.. i feel so damn tired.. it was only almost 8pm.. ahhh.. IM GETTIN OLD~~!! anyway.. since i hvnt got anythin to do at hm.. i decided to.............. dedicate an entry to my dearest weiwei~!! *lolZ*

weiwei -- my precious hammy

i only dare to sayang my weiwei on his head. and tazz considered a BIGG~ improvement alrdy ok~ coz last time, de furthest thing i will do is to wash up his cage. and carryin him out will require a roll-up paper. even though im still usin roll-up paper now, but at least i dare to sayang him ok~~ bare hand~!! mai siao siaoz..

guess he has been trained in my family. to Zzz in a super noisy environment.. *lolZ* imagine ppl playin majong juz beside his cage and HE IS ZZZIN SO SOUNDLY~!! weiwei looks stupid, behave stupidly BUT i believe he is smart. act stupid only, juz like his mummy. wahahahha~! :x
he is able to clean up his wound himself and is liked.. de doctor dun think well of his situatn de 1st time i brought him to doctor coz he havin a small tumor near his stomach. de doctor merely DUG out those yellow pus and kinda want me to jie ai shun bian. AMAZINGLY, weiwei recovered after weeks. after qiqi died, i put him on a healthy diet, coz i scare he dies la~~ so yeah yeah~~ he is livin off v well. i hope he understands tat his mummy has got his welfare at heart. (-_-")

and ya, 1 thing i realize abt my weiwei is.. ahhh.. he also got frightened DAMN EASILY. (-_-")
u open de cage to put food, he jumped up in his sleep.
u shout into his cage, he got startled.
and ya la.. so much more. but when u wash tiles durin majong.. he is fine, perrrrfectly fine.. duhzz... i dunno wat he is up to.. and i realize tat he does wake up at ard 130AM to run de wheel.. w0o~ keep fit sia.. hahaha! and de funniest stunt he is performin now is.. wheneva u put a stix of biscuit in.. he will bite it and CHIONG ard de cage. dun ask me why.. he looks so gan cheong to me.. rushin for bus ahz~? *lolZ* and ya, ah ping put 1 cheezel ring in de other time, he went to hide it at de extension, used woodshed to cover it lor.. (-_-").. but i removed and threw it away. he alrdy finished 3/4 of it at ONE go.. (-_-")

i also feed my weiwei occasionally w/ oats in milk, green cabbage, milk drink.. apple, biscuits, bread, nuts.. no junk food plz.. my weiwei is too old to eat and then DIE EARLY. he dunno how to ctrl, he juz eats. and he loves to try NEW food. u noe some pets hor.. u put in a new food in their cage, they sniff and sniff then dun eat. SO OLD FASHIONED~!! weiwei is like me.. love tryin new food. hahaha! wateva food u put, he will eat. if it is not nice, u can see de lor.. he will go away almost immediately after his 1st bite. *lolZ* he quite likes oats in milk. heh..

ahhh.. my entry is GETTIN damn long alrdy.. hahahah! if u r still survivin till tis very line.. it means my entry is NOT borrrrin la?? heh.. okok, i will try harder nxt time.. *lolZ*


[[ End of Chapter // im AT HOME ]]