i feel like bloggin.. but maybe not here.. haha!
anyway, i realize tat all relatnship stories seem almost de same..
my frenz encountered a hump in her bgr last time which i had recently encountered.
then she encountered some probs tis time round again, w/ a total full change of chars.. hmm.. i encountered tat alrdy last time.. *lolZ*
wat de heck manz.. is juz so.. borrrin.. makes me feel tat even though we r livin in a big big~ world.. but all de love stories seem de same.. juz tat it happens to diff ppl at diff time intervals..
Date Stamp:
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
mornie mornie!!
im feelin so nice.. haha! i recover liaoz lehz.. hmm.. maybe coz i managed to find out some things and hmmm.. got myself outta my own mess. hiak hiak~ speedy recovery~ *show a victory sign*
comin to wrk today is.. wahh.. i saw a very very pretty ger. dressed in
light yellow satin spaghetti and a very mini
white skirt w/ polka dots. her legs tanned, slim, so nice~! ahhh.. reli de kinda legs i admire. w/ a light brown shlder bag over and long wavy hair.. sharp nose. flawless complexion and evenly
tanned skin. omgZ~ i think i almost fainted at tis heavenly goddess in front of me. *lolZ*
*stared at her
red tee, 3/4
pants and
red cheapo slippers*
*shook head & gave a loud sigh*
*adjust her old frameless specs*
oh~ wateva.. not like i care.. haha!
and ya.. heavenly goddess will always be followed by a weird creature.
stepped into de cabin.
*observe surroundings for new discovery*
*target spotted*
wat de heck~ i saw tis aunty.. in
yellowish green short sleeved collared shirt. and a slightly
darker green skirt. and she havin those colorful plastic crystal-lookalike balls as belt~! and ya, somemore around her neck as necklace in smaller sizes. *look further* wahh~
dark green leather orbiang bag~!
*peep at her wrist*
ahhh~
dark green leather watch!! *faintZ* SHE ABUSIN DE COLOR OF GREEN LOR~!! my fave green.. *s0bs0b*
hey wait~ i saw a familiar chain beside her *ahem* watch. ahhh~~
*pull hair in distress*
aint tat de gold chain my kor bought for me on my 21st bday~? juz tat slightly thicker.. *hide her wrist behind her back* ahhh..
but anyway, such funny creature nv failed to amuse me. self-entertainment, can? im bad i noe.. all along wat~ *lolZ*
and i bought 4 badges yest. *grinZ*
leti - I am in shape. Round is a shape. (specially picked by leti)
cheryl - Friends are like stars. You dont see them often but u know they are always there. (meaningful huhz~~)
melvin - I am having a bad day and looking at you will only make it worse! (wahahaha! :x)
mine - Get Lost. I am not paid to be nice to you!
i love my badge~ *show another victory sign*
[[ End of Chapter // hiya~! ]]
~ i will be fine.. ~
Date Stamp:
Monday, June 13, 2005
i think im dyin..ever since fri, my mood was unable to pick up. but well.. no matter wat, im still tryin quite hard to keep myself at a neutral mood.
went to watch PCK musical on fri. im glad tat tix were free. is not worth watchin at all. reli waste my time. leti & huiling suggested leavin durin de 15mins interval but i dun want. only 930pm lehz.. and i juz think is rude to leave halfway. anyway lamee show.. other than de fantastic orchestra, de rest is not worth watchin..
Sat was out shoppin w/ leti. bought a pair of 3/4 jeans, a pair of slippers, eye liner and a SPCA mousepad for noel. heh.. i nv noe adoptin a dog is juz $130.. wahh.. hmm.. when i got a hse of my own, i will wana adopt 1. ahhh..
Golden Retriever~!! i simply love Golden Retriever!! so gold & so bigg~~ wahahah! and so furry~ i love furry animals, juz like how
i love my hammy weiwei~ weiwei dun bite his mummy~ :preached hm ard 11pm. i felt so sick. u noe.. there r times when u dun feel like stayin hm. nth happened at hm. i juz dun wana face de walls and start thinkin alot. de wall juz in front, i may juz bang into it. so went walk walk w/ zhiyong.. ahhh~ alfred dun wana acc us! ok la, he still feelin ill. dun force him. went to upper mac ritchie reservoir. NO STARS~! maybe got la.. i cldnt see any lehz.. zhiyong told me no1 reli understands me. hmm.. ya i guess so.
i dun even understand myself MOST of de times. i do stupid things, i think stupid. fine, im stupid. and ya, i realized i din eat anythin at all for Sat. de most fillin thing i ate tat day.. shld be.. ermm.. bubble tea pearls? i dun understand why but i juz dun feel hungry. ahhh.. i got VERY BIGG~ appetite normally. tat day, i was abnormal.
ah hui called me on Sun, tellin me abt him and de ger he likes. so based on horoscopes, i was tryin to pinpt some things he shldnt do la.. then ah sen walked past and said,"u dunno anythin dun anyhow tell ppl la.." i was somehow annoyed, so i told ah hui,"my y.bro wants me to hang up de fone coz i dunno anythin. ok~ byebye~" ya. i dunno anythin. i admit i dunno anythin. coz im a failure myself. managed to force some food down - a dumpling, a pc of bread and some rice at nite. i scooped v lil rice alrdy, as compared to normal days. but still, i find myself strugglin thru. hugged baobei audrey tightly yest when she was at my hse. i seriously nid some consolatn.
and today? look at some pics and found myself w/ droplets of tears unknowingly. de world is full of cruel realities, i was not even allowed a little corner to dream. i will be fine, i told my frenz im fine and i promised myself tat i will be fine.. evthin will be over and times can prove nth..
[[ End of Chapter // i will be fine.. ]]
~ hangout ~
Date Stamp:
Friday, June 10, 2005
went out w/ noel, ah bu and lee lee yest~ hmm.. is nice to hang out w/ them coz they surely noe all de nice hangouts and gd food in sg~ heh.. but anyway, we went Fish & Co. for dinner.. (-_-") .. ah bu, lee lee and i ordered de Swordfish Collar each. ahhh.. when de food came, kills my appetite almost instantly. SO BIGG~!! i think 2 pax can share 1 lor.. is reli sinful to waste food.. too bad cannot tabao~ i hate to waste food lehz~~ aiyoh..
oh ya, and i forgot tat i gotta take de PCK Musical tix frm leeli. alamak~ she called and i was liked.. "oh ya~" called huiling but she gng out w/ her game frenz.. called my y.bro and he attendin song kar.. (-_-") kinda panickin coz ahhh.. no1 in de list for me to call le.. then ah bu suggested my godkors. hmmm.. 1 stayed in camp lehz.. de other 1.. ok la! try try.. alfred juz finished Cookin his mee.. haha! blehz~ he said he called me after he finished Eatin.. yeah yeah~ in de end, he went. wahahaha! :x
my godkors r all sOoOooOooo nice~
thz alfred. i owe u 1.. 1 cts i mean. hahaha! :x
after dinner, we went to de board game cafe inside de bugis shophouses. not reli a cosy environment.. so cafe~ but anyway, is meant to be a cafe rite! :p
played till ard 11pm and we left. we only managed to play 1 card game and 1 board game. fyi, we reached there ard 9pm++.
gng to de PCK Musical w/ leti and huiling today. since de tix is free.. why not? *lolZ*
[[ End of Chapter // hangout ]]
~ mS VoLcAn0 ~
Date Stamp:
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
went k ge w/ huiling yest..
thz ger for accompanyin me~ reli appreciate tat.. :)tried lookin for ppl to go ktv w/ me for de past 2 days but no1 is free.. i dun reli like to sing coz i got a terrrrrible voice.. but ya~ suddenly got de urge to go then.
i felt seriously choked inside me. there is sth inside me waitin to burst out if i dun vent it soon. i got no will to yell at any1, i dun wish for tat. i dunno wazz happenin to me, maybe i got de post-weddin blues. not my weddin, but my kor's.. hmmm.. further details wont be elaborated here.. but for sure is not coz of my family la.. wateva happened tat day is over. i dun brood over it since is liked.. i noe ev1 is stressed up and anxious durin tat BIGG~ day.. is juz some things i cant think it thru and hmm.. maybe shldnt think abt it anymore. is not gng to help anyway. forget it~
so huiling and i sang for almost 4hrs. she was doin commerical singin. *lolZ* and i screamed at de top of my voice. im craZy~ huiling muz haf suffered a great deal. oopS~ sori ya.. *lolZ*
so today.. im feelin gd~ heh.. but still.. wld like to see sunrise.. hmm..
[[ End of Chapter // mS VoLcAn0 ]]
~ inside me.. ~
Date Stamp:
Friday, June 03, 2005
suddenly i realize.. i dunno how to praise ppl wor~~~ *lolZ* hmm.. was kinda ponderin over some things and then i realize i dun praise ppl. not even de slightest though i feel tat some ppl deserve praises at times. hmm.. =
m i reli evil or wat~? why so difficult to praise ppl ahz~? think hor.. i muz TRY to start praisin ppl.. but for wat~? say.. Frenz A suddenly went to decor her rm w/ nice nice wallpapers, etc. guess my response will be..
"u got nth beta to do ahz~?" instead of
"wahh.. ur rm so sweet~~ so nice! v cosy lehz~~" any1 who noes me confirm nod in agreement tat im de spokeperson for de 1st statement~! *lolZ*
i find it so hard to say sori.. so normally, i will apologize thru sms. duhz.. im tat useless.. (>_<) and ya, now i realize i find it so hard to praise ppl~ alamak~ is de world tat dark? praises can brighten some1's day for sure. who dun like to be praised? sadist ahz? hmm.. but aiyoh.. i still find it v hard to praise ppl lehz.. so ermm.. nxt time even if i din praise u for ur gdwrk, juz rem tat deep inside me,
I DID~ yeah~ u all make me feel proud to be ur frenz k~ *lolZ*
[[ End of Chapter // inside me.. ]]