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我是一个不善表达的巫婆
平时说话大剌剌
所以让人以为我是个什么都说的人
其实，越在乎的，我越不懂怎么表达
光临我的心境世界，欢迎多多了解我 ^_^
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~ clear sky.. ~
Date Stamp:
Friday, April 29, 2005
early mornie, i wana start off a post le.. not tat i got nth to do.. *glare at de pile of wrk beside her* but hmm.. i got many things to say..
met angie yest at J8. went for dinner and bought a denim skirt for my da-sao bday. anyway, happy 21st birthday kristy! i believe u enjoy urself.. saw jiemin, my pri sch frenz.. feels gd to see old frenz coz she is de only pri sch frenz i see and dare to acknowledge. haha! and ya, also wana say a BIGG~ thz to leti.. she always called me up at de rite time when i nid a listenin ear.. heh.. i love ya~ haha!
but de above is not de gist tat urges me into bloggin.actually.. angie.. i noe u r readin.. till now, im still thinkin of wat u say at de bus stop. not abt ur benson.. u noe who~ ger.. i saw de sorrows and hurt in ur eyes. m i imaginin things? i feel reli upset abt de whole matter, even though u r de ultimate victim. rem u asked me abt de "quotes"? they were for de same pax u r tokin abt. i dun dare to pluck up a slight bit of my courage to tell u who in de past. it was a whole shit of misunderstandin, i believe. but now, i guess it all belonged to de past tense now and im glad it din affect our frenzhip.. will tell u de whole thing when i got a chance to meet u up again..
i haf struggled my way out.. only to realize tat de sky outside is so much nicer than de 1 under urs..
~darn.. ~
early mornie, i wana start off a post le.. not tat i got nth to do.. *glare at de pile of wrk beside her* but hmm.. i got many things to say..
met angie yest at J8. went for dinner and bought a denim skirt for my da-sao bday. anyway, happy 21st birthday kristy! i believe u enjoy urself.. saw jiemin, my pri sch frenz.. feels gd to see old frenz coz she is de only pri sch frenz i see and dare to acknowledge. haha! and ya, also wana say a BIGG~ thz to leti.. she always called me up at de rite time when i nid a listenin ear.. heh.. i love ya~ haha!
but de above is not de gist tat urges me into bloggin.actually.. angie.. i noe u r readin.. till now, im still thinkin of wat u say at de bus stop. not abt ur benson.. u noe who~ ger.. i saw de sorrows and hurt in ur eyes. m i imaginin things? i feel reli upset abt de whole matter, even though u r de ultimate victim. rem u asked me abt de "quotes"? they were for de same pax u r tokin abt. i dun dare to pluck up a slight bit of my courage to tell u who in de past. it was a whole shit of misunderstandin, i believe. but now, i guess it all belonged to de past tense now and im glad it din affect our frenzhip.. will tell u de whole thing when i got a chance to meet u up again..
i haf struggled my way out.. only to realize tat de sky outside is so much nicer than de 1 under urs..
[[ End of Chapter // clear sky.. ]]
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Date Stamp:
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
im in a bad mood.
so bad i wish i can die.
nono, i wish i can kill whoeva tat almost steps my tail.
arghz!! i feel like screamin!! wherez de sea~! arghz!!idiot~!!!*pull hair in distress*
fuck. i can do nth except typin in front of my pc now.. arghz.. i cant scream, i cant yell, i cant shout at any1 and worse still, I CANT SCOLD ANY1~!! was it my mistake?? NO WAT!! but im feelin so guilty. for waT! mother fucker. i wish those idiots can juz drop dead, arghz!! then i dun nida face them. arghz!!!
why m i always feelin so sori over some matters tat is NOT AT ALL MY MISTAKE! fuck. arghz! muz be my 2nd boss face. he always got de ke lian and stressed up face, tat makes me feel tat im always gettin into trouble and tazz why his face is lidat. arghz~! who dun make mistakes!! and wheneva there's a mistake, all pt finger at me, surely. arghz!! i cannot learn huhz.. MUZ IT BE ME WHO MADE DE MISTAKE~!!?? learnin process dun haf mistakes still call learnin process mehz~ and make mistakes muz be condemn ahz~!! im alrdy pickin up but still, i get fingers ptin at me. ok, maybe not. im juz imaginin things. arghz!
i do feel guilty over my mistake and will try to atone if i can, and im still learnin frm my mistake. but wat de heck~! more and more unpredictable things croppin up, and is NONE OF MY FUCKIN BIZ lor!! why m i de 1 who always kana.. arghz! save me, God~!!
~my office.. ~
im in a bad mood.
so bad i wish i can die.
nono, i wish i can kill whoeva tat almost steps my tail.
arghz!! i feel like screamin!! wherez de sea~! arghz!!idiot~!!!*pull hair in distress*
fuck. i can do nth except typin in front of my pc now.. arghz.. i cant scream, i cant yell, i cant shout at any1 and worse still, I CANT SCOLD ANY1~!! was it my mistake?? NO WAT!! but im feelin so guilty. for waT! mother fucker. i wish those idiots can juz drop dead, arghz!! then i dun nida face them. arghz!!!
why m i always feelin so sori over some matters tat is NOT AT ALL MY MISTAKE! fuck. arghz! muz be my 2nd boss face. he always got de ke lian and stressed up face, tat makes me feel tat im always gettin into trouble and tazz why his face is lidat. arghz~! who dun make mistakes!! and wheneva there's a mistake, all pt finger at me, surely. arghz!! i cannot learn huhz.. MUZ IT BE ME WHO MADE DE MISTAKE~!!?? learnin process dun haf mistakes still call learnin process mehz~ and make mistakes muz be condemn ahz~!! im alrdy pickin up but still, i get fingers ptin at me. ok, maybe not. im juz imaginin things. arghz!
i do feel guilty over my mistake and will try to atone if i can, and im still learnin frm my mistake. but wat de heck~! more and more unpredictable things croppin up, and is NONE OF MY FUCKIN BIZ lor!! why m i de 1 who always kana.. arghz! save me, God~!!
[[ End of Chapter // darn.. ]]
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Date Stamp:
Friday, April 22, 2005
office is unexpectedly quiet today.. alamak~ like abit TOO quiet? i din realize it de lehz.. was too engrossed reading Yihui's blog alrdy.. anyway, in case u r mistaken, her blog is not reli tat interestin to haf caused me bein so absorbed. hahahaa! jk jk..
was sortin out those datas.. wahh.. sianz~ no1 to play w/ me lehz.. i wana suan xiao ppl lehz.. but here no1 for me to suan.. haha! where's melvin~!! he de only pax tat can tolerate my nonsense.. *lolZ* im feelin so borrred.. wahahaha! can i do a self intro here? muahahhaa! im so bored..
workin in an office at chinatown. ok la.. cross de street and walk abit further is actually boat quay. i can see de sign "Liang Court" frm where im sittin.. ehzz.. how come i hear drilling sound..? anyway, my office is currently holdin 2 bosses, lam & chong, noel, cheryl, melvin, chantel(coded name: Violet, aiyah~ guess is ok to type her name, coz almost ev1 who noes me noes im not happy w/ her. *lolZ*), iris, leelee, natasha. de 3 sales pax left us - jo, kenneth, stefanie.
SMALL company la~ *yawnz* wah liewz.. i wonderin if i shld start introducin them 1 by 1.. coz suddenly i feel so... lazy.. haha! summary - all r nice ppl la.. and v steady thing is.. all attached.. haha! as young as melvin havin a gf, and as old as natasha w/ 2 sons alrdy. cheryl only 29 lehz.. alrdy got 1 daughter nearin 1yr old. still in a v gd fig wor.. *envy* chantel got her dear but is constantly denyin.. only me and lee lee single. haha! no wonder i click so well w/ her.. pengZ~ but anyway, im so unsure why.. why de hell my office seem to be mockin at my marital status?! wazz wrong w/ bein single? alamak (-_-").. but i appreciate their efforts though, all wana help me find a bf, even my 2nd boss, chong.. (-_-""").. he said he got a frenz ard 24yrs old, is an asst lawyer.. v promisin guy.. blah blah.. wahh.. and guess wat? a malaysian. yucks~~ i hate malaysians. bein frenz is ok, definitely not my beta half lor.. go and die la.. i hate malaysians.. *pui pui pui*
~mistakes ~
office is unexpectedly quiet today.. alamak~ like abit TOO quiet? i din realize it de lehz.. was too engrossed reading Yihui's blog alrdy.. anyway, in case u r mistaken, her blog is not reli tat interestin to haf caused me bein so absorbed. hahahaa! jk jk..
was sortin out those datas.. wahh.. sianz~ no1 to play w/ me lehz.. i wana suan xiao ppl lehz.. but here no1 for me to suan.. haha! where's melvin~!! he de only pax tat can tolerate my nonsense.. *lolZ* im feelin so borrred.. wahahaha! can i do a self intro here? muahahhaa! im so bored..
workin in an office at chinatown. ok la.. cross de street and walk abit further is actually boat quay. i can see de sign "Liang Court" frm where im sittin.. ehzz.. how come i hear drilling sound..? anyway, my office is currently holdin 2 bosses, lam & chong, noel, cheryl, melvin, chantel(coded name: Violet, aiyah~ guess is ok to type her name, coz almost ev1 who noes me noes im not happy w/ her. *lolZ*), iris, leelee, natasha. de 3 sales pax left us - jo, kenneth, stefanie.
SMALL company la~ *yawnz* wah liewz.. i wonderin if i shld start introducin them 1 by 1.. coz suddenly i feel so... lazy.. haha! summary - all r nice ppl la.. and v steady thing is.. all attached.. haha! as young as melvin havin a gf, and as old as natasha w/ 2 sons alrdy. cheryl only 29 lehz.. alrdy got 1 daughter nearin 1yr old. still in a v gd fig wor.. *envy* chantel got her dear but is constantly denyin.. only me and lee lee single. haha! no wonder i click so well w/ her.. pengZ~ but anyway, im so unsure why.. why de hell my office seem to be mockin at my marital status?! wazz wrong w/ bein single? alamak (-_-").. but i appreciate their efforts though, all wana help me find a bf, even my 2nd boss, chong.. (-_-""").. he said he got a frenz ard 24yrs old, is an asst lawyer.. v promisin guy.. blah blah.. wahh.. and guess wat? a malaysian. yucks~~ i hate malaysians. bein frenz is ok, definitely not my beta half lor.. go and die la.. i hate malaysians.. *pui pui pui*
[[ End of Chapter // my office.. ]]
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Date Stamp:
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
my head is spinnin like hell sia.. still spinnin.. arghz~
i misplaced a document at another company file. was searchin low and high and at de same time thinkin if i had actually did a backup copy for it. im so afraid i din.. tat company cannot be offended sia.. i gave up in de midst and was liked.. arghz.. i wana die!! then de nxt moment i realized i was gorgin myself w/ food - raisin bread, jelly, chicken crackers.. i cant think manz.. so fed up! but violet(code name, and yes, de ger i reli dislike) helped me. alamak~ i feel so bad again. coz i was lookin so damn frustrated w/o a sound. then she asked me wat happen and i told her. then she started helpin me to look thru files and files. and finally, i found tat file. i was liked, "arghz~ why did i misplace it~!! & overlook it when searchin thru tis file juz now".. then she consoled me and said,"is ok de la.. u will tend to overlook things when gan cheong" i was liked.. wahh.. suddenly she got a halo ring above her head.. *lolZ*
but yest she irritated ah bu. i dunno wazz de whole issue abt but when violet left de office to go open mailbox.. ah bu told noel tat she feels liked shoutin at her. then bits & pieces here & there, i guessed violet is tryin to shift blame again, to either ah bu or me.. but i guess most prolly will be me.. haiz.. is ok.. im used to it alrdy.. and im so used to feelin guilty over my mistakes, till a state noel told me, is not my fault but i still think it is. im partly at blame for causin some things to happen here and there.. alas, im givin a confession here ahz..? *lolZ*
later gng to bring weiwei (my hammy's name) to de vet. he also contracted de tumor thingy which noel said is v common among hamsters. can some1 assure me tat your hammy is also havin a tumor or had died of tumor?!!? haiz.. coz i always think tat only my hammy is sufferin frm tumors. lucky thing is i realized weiwei early. i realized qiqi too late. tazz why she left me. im such a bad mother. :~(
im startin to wonder if de tumors r actually caused by FATS in their body. coz i used to feed them w/ junks - crackers la, choco bix, peanut butter bread, bacon snack stix.. simply wateva i ate, i will spare them some. gd things muz share mahz.. *lolZ* but soon after qiqi dead, i put weiwei to a strict diet. no more junks and his food r bought especially. those sunflowers seeds and lil bits of dunno-wat r bad for their health lehz.. those r not de regular food they can eat evday. so i no longer feed him w/ them. i love him too much to see him suffer frm wat qiqi had gone thru. *ok, time for lunch...*
~food food food.. ~
my head is spinnin like hell sia.. still spinnin.. arghz~
i misplaced a document at another company file. was searchin low and high and at de same time thinkin if i had actually did a backup copy for it. im so afraid i din.. tat company cannot be offended sia.. i gave up in de midst and was liked.. arghz.. i wana die!! then de nxt moment i realized i was gorgin myself w/ food - raisin bread, jelly, chicken crackers.. i cant think manz.. so fed up! but violet(code name, and yes, de ger i reli dislike) helped me. alamak~ i feel so bad again. coz i was lookin so damn frustrated w/o a sound. then she asked me wat happen and i told her. then she started helpin me to look thru files and files. and finally, i found tat file. i was liked, "arghz~ why did i misplace it~!! & overlook it when searchin thru tis file juz now".. then she consoled me and said,"is ok de la.. u will tend to overlook things when gan cheong" i was liked.. wahh.. suddenly she got a halo ring above her head.. *lolZ*
but yest she irritated ah bu. i dunno wazz de whole issue abt but when violet left de office to go open mailbox.. ah bu told noel tat she feels liked shoutin at her. then bits & pieces here & there, i guessed violet is tryin to shift blame again, to either ah bu or me.. but i guess most prolly will be me.. haiz.. is ok.. im used to it alrdy.. and im so used to feelin guilty over my mistakes, till a state noel told me, is not my fault but i still think it is. im partly at blame for causin some things to happen here and there.. alas, im givin a confession here ahz..? *lolZ*
later gng to bring weiwei (my hammy's name) to de vet. he also contracted de tumor thingy which noel said is v common among hamsters. can some1 assure me tat your hammy is also havin a tumor or had died of tumor?!!? haiz.. coz i always think tat only my hammy is sufferin frm tumors. lucky thing is i realized weiwei early. i realized qiqi too late. tazz why she left me. im such a bad mother. :~(
im startin to wonder if de tumors r actually caused by FATS in their body. coz i used to feed them w/ junks - crackers la, choco bix, peanut butter bread, bacon snack stix.. simply wateva i ate, i will spare them some. gd things muz share mahz.. *lolZ* but soon after qiqi dead, i put weiwei to a strict diet. no more junks and his food r bought especially. those sunflowers seeds and lil bits of dunno-wat r bad for their health lehz.. those r not de regular food they can eat evday. so i no longer feed him w/ them. i love him too much to see him suffer frm wat qiqi had gone thru. *ok, time for lunch...*
[[ End of Chapter // mistakes ]]
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Date Stamp:
Friday, April 15, 2005
woo.. i haf been postin v frequently ehz.. it will die off de la..
anyway, my supervisor/ah bu/colleague, cheryl, bought me a small box of chocolates yest, in seashell shape. *yum yum* milk chocolate~ but i prefer dark chocolate.. haha! and in all case, I LOVE CHOCOLATES~! and noel bought a loaf of Gardenia raisin bread for me and cheryl. i also treat them nice nice de ok.. a few days ago, i bought them ice cream. small tub but cost $3.50.. expensive sia~~
and tis comin Sat im gng for a buffet at Grand Plaza Hotel. wahahahah~! de thot of buffet reli makes me drool manz.. haha! and is cheap. coz leti has got 2 free vouchers and then can get discount (coz she havin attachm there).. so wahahaha! shld be payin less than $15 for an international buffet~
wonder when jo will fix de date to go wakeboardin.. coz recently de weather has been v bad.. no1 dares to risk their $$ payin for wakeboardin and in de end, rained~!
~actually i dun care.. haha! ~
woo.. i haf been postin v frequently ehz.. it will die off de la..
anyway, my supervisor/ah bu/colleague, cheryl, bought me a small box of chocolates yest, in seashell shape. *yum yum* milk chocolate~ but i prefer dark chocolate.. haha! and in all case, I LOVE CHOCOLATES~! and noel bought a loaf of Gardenia raisin bread for me and cheryl. i also treat them nice nice de ok.. a few days ago, i bought them ice cream. small tub but cost $3.50.. expensive sia~~
and tis comin Sat im gng for a buffet at Grand Plaza Hotel. wahahahah~! de thot of buffet reli makes me drool manz.. haha! and is cheap. coz leti has got 2 free vouchers and then can get discount (coz she havin attachm there).. so wahahaha! shld be payin less than $15 for an international buffet~
wonder when jo will fix de date to go wakeboardin.. coz recently de weather has been v bad.. no1 dares to risk their $$ payin for wakeboardin and in de end, rained~!
[[ End of Chapter // food food food.. ]]
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Date Stamp:
Thursday, April 14, 2005
i reli pei fu those ppl who blog and u noe, they dun care abt other ppl's opinions. they blog wat they wana say and say out loud. but.. i dun haf tat kinda courage
some things r beta left unsaid. afterall, most of de ppl readin ur blog will be ppl u noe.. n let's say, u ranted abt how much u hated tis pax and risk lettin her noe coz she may haf ur blog address.. is tat gd? or u may start a declaratn of how much u like tis guy and rumbled on and on.. but is tis gd?
i blogged and said things.. coz there r some things i dunno how to say when face-to-face. and basically, i feel tat my frenz nida understand my inner world, wat im reli thinkin upon various situations. why m i so self- ctred? dun i feel de nid to understand my frenz as well? yesh, i surely do. and i nid my frenz to gif me de sources into enterin their inner world, juz like wat im doin now.. i blog and their access to my inner world is to see tis blog~! haha! craps.. but still, there are definitely some things i wont say here la..
and ya~ if i go screamin abt how much i hate tis ger in my office(coded name Violet).. i can do tat so freely.. coz she dun haf any clue of tis blog.. haha! call me a backstabber but at least i dun declare war w/ any1 close to me.. she not close to me.. i dun like her.. yuckS~
and i wont bother givin ppl a false impressn. some ppl simply dun blog based on their real life. ok, based on their real life but then they miss out some parts here and there, quite misleadin.. and hor.. some ppl can be v.. dunno lehz.. tryin v hard in their blogs to prove sth.. i dunno wat la~ haha! actually i dun care rite.. coz i guess tis entry is quite offensive.. haha! :p
~where r my TRUE frenz.. ~
i reli pei fu those ppl who blog and u noe, they dun care abt other ppl's opinions. they blog wat they wana say and say out loud. but.. i dun haf tat kinda courage
some things r beta left unsaid. afterall, most of de ppl readin ur blog will be ppl u noe.. n let's say, u ranted abt how much u hated tis pax and risk lettin her noe coz she may haf ur blog address.. is tat gd? or u may start a declaratn of how much u like tis guy and rumbled on and on.. but is tis gd?
i blogged and said things.. coz there r some things i dunno how to say when face-to-face. and basically, i feel tat my frenz nida understand my inner world, wat im reli thinkin upon various situations. why m i so self- ctred? dun i feel de nid to understand my frenz as well? yesh, i surely do. and i nid my frenz to gif me de sources into enterin their inner world, juz like wat im doin now.. i blog and their access to my inner world is to see tis blog~! haha! craps.. but still, there are definitely some things i wont say here la..
and ya~ if i go screamin abt how much i hate tis ger in my office(coded name Violet).. i can do tat so freely.. coz she dun haf any clue of tis blog.. haha! call me a backstabber but at least i dun declare war w/ any1 close to me.. she not close to me.. i dun like her.. yuckS~
and i wont bother givin ppl a false impressn. some ppl simply dun blog based on their real life. ok, based on their real life but then they miss out some parts here and there, quite misleadin.. and hor.. some ppl can be v.. dunno lehz.. tryin v hard in their blogs to prove sth.. i dunno wat la~ haha! actually i dun care rite.. coz i guess tis entry is quite offensive.. haha! :p
[[ End of Chapter // actually i dun care.. haha! ]]
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Date Stamp:
Saturday, April 09, 2005
went out w/ gang of 4 yest.. i did not enjoy myself as wat i normally had.. startin to ponder over how different each of us is, esp me to them.. im so different frm them, but well.. i wont change myself to suit them. i dun find anythin wrong w/ my lifestyle, de way i look at things and even de way i dress. i dun expect them to change theirs but well, minimal respect is supposed to be there.. perhaps im still not treatin them gd enuff for them to change their attitude towards me.
we had our dinner at cafe cartel instead of wat i been yearnin for - a buffet. then it all went silence, instead of de normal yakkin we always shared. so i started "complainin" abt de cafe cartel (cineleisure) lookin like a food court, then it was quite humid.. then leti said,"wazz ur prob today~? keep complainin.. aiyoh.." in a NOT-AT-ALL-JOKIN tone. i was tryin to get some tokin out, but apparently, complainin is not a gd way to start off any conversatn. so i decided to shut myself up and watched tv instead. then a moment later, she went,"hey tok lehz.." to us. i was somewat unhappy,"tok u say i complain, then i dun tok u tell me to tok.. wat u want me to do?"
i noe im unreasonable but it had been a v long time since i last threw my tantrum lor.. im not throwin my temper on purpose la.. but is liked, i got temper 1 lor.. even though im fully aware tat ev1 STILL thinks im a volcano tat will erupt anytime, but i haf been tryin to ctrl my temper. if ppl cant see de change in me, then fuck off~ stop thinkin tat im ALWAYS behavin as if a spoilt brat who rants at any1 on streets. IM NOT.
de whole dinner wasnt nice except for de food. *yum yum* i wana take up a part time job, coz im so hard up for cash.. but they discouraged me. i noe they mean well.. but they will nv noe de reason for me needin cash. it is not coz i wana earn more so tat i can spend more, or i earn more to save more. MY FOOT~ i wana earn more coz of my family. but i dun wish to say anythin to them la.. it is liked, they cant understand then will retort me back.
~random rants ~
went out w/ gang of 4 yest.. i did not enjoy myself as wat i normally had.. startin to ponder over how different each of us is, esp me to them.. im so different frm them, but well.. i wont change myself to suit them. i dun find anythin wrong w/ my lifestyle, de way i look at things and even de way i dress. i dun expect them to change theirs but well, minimal respect is supposed to be there.. perhaps im still not treatin them gd enuff for them to change their attitude towards me.
we had our dinner at cafe cartel instead of wat i been yearnin for - a buffet. then it all went silence, instead of de normal yakkin we always shared. so i started "complainin" abt de cafe cartel (cineleisure) lookin like a food court, then it was quite humid.. then leti said,"wazz ur prob today~? keep complainin.. aiyoh.." in a NOT-AT-ALL-JOKIN tone. i was tryin to get some tokin out, but apparently, complainin is not a gd way to start off any conversatn. so i decided to shut myself up and watched tv instead. then a moment later, she went,"hey tok lehz.." to us. i was somewat unhappy,"tok u say i complain, then i dun tok u tell me to tok.. wat u want me to do?"
i noe im unreasonable but it had been a v long time since i last threw my tantrum lor.. im not throwin my temper on purpose la.. but is liked, i got temper 1 lor.. even though im fully aware tat ev1 STILL thinks im a volcano tat will erupt anytime, but i haf been tryin to ctrl my temper. if ppl cant see de change in me, then fuck off~ stop thinkin tat im ALWAYS behavin as if a spoilt brat who rants at any1 on streets. IM NOT.
de whole dinner wasnt nice except for de food. *yum yum* i wana take up a part time job, coz im so hard up for cash.. but they discouraged me. i noe they mean well.. but they will nv noe de reason for me needin cash. it is not coz i wana earn more so tat i can spend more, or i earn more to save more. MY FOOT~ i wana earn more coz of my family. but i dun wish to say anythin to them la.. it is liked, they cant understand then will retort me back.
[[ End of Chapter // where r my TRUE frenz.. ]]
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Date Stamp:
Thursday, April 07, 2005
IM BACK~! my office pc had been spoilt for de past 3 days. and is Norton Internet Security that caused it. i dunno wat happen but i did de LiveUpdate thingy, after which they prompt me to reboot my pc. then my pc de internet cannot be used anymore~!! liewz..
and coz my office is so damn small, they dun haf a network admin, shockin huhz? *lolZ* we called up a company which had helped them prevly to fix up de internet and they quoted us a price of $300~!! omgZ~ crazy.. anyway, de prob is solved. else i wont be here.. *lolZ*
helped my colleague to buy flowers for his wife.. and hmm.. i realized.. flowers indeed make gers much prettier. dunno is coz de pretty flowers add onto de ger as a garnish or wat.. but well, tazz wat i realized la.. haha! so guys~ start givin flowers to ur gfs if u realize she is not tat pretty anymore.. *lolZ*
im so tired now.. de feelin of dislikin some1 till beyond limit is unbearable. i hate de feelin of dislikin a pax.. and well, i dun reli will dislike any1 de lor.. maybe juz neutral. but now, damn.. i reli dislike her sia~ till a pt of time, i realize i dun even wana look at her in de eyes when tokin.. im so bad~ ;p
~contradictin post.. ~
IM BACK~! my office pc had been spoilt for de past 3 days. and is Norton Internet Security that caused it. i dunno wat happen but i did de LiveUpdate thingy, after which they prompt me to reboot my pc. then my pc de internet cannot be used anymore~!! liewz..
and coz my office is so damn small, they dun haf a network admin, shockin huhz? *lolZ* we called up a company which had helped them prevly to fix up de internet and they quoted us a price of $300~!! omgZ~ crazy.. anyway, de prob is solved. else i wont be here.. *lolZ*
helped my colleague to buy flowers for his wife.. and hmm.. i realized.. flowers indeed make gers much prettier. dunno is coz de pretty flowers add onto de ger as a garnish or wat.. but well, tazz wat i realized la.. haha! so guys~ start givin flowers to ur gfs if u realize she is not tat pretty anymore.. *lolZ*
im so tired now.. de feelin of dislikin some1 till beyond limit is unbearable. i hate de feelin of dislikin a pax.. and well, i dun reli will dislike any1 de lor.. maybe juz neutral. but now, damn.. i reli dislike her sia~ till a pt of time, i realize i dun even wana look at her in de eyes when tokin.. im so bad~ ;p
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Friday, April 01, 2005
Mr. ABC once told me,"if some 1 lies to u, i believe he got his own reason for lyin. he may haf thot of de consequences and thinks tat he shld hide de truth frm de other party.. coz he dun wana hurt de pax.."
it was such long ago he said to me coz i was havin some probz w/ my frenz. does it mean tat it takes more courage to lie than to say de truth? and does it take more brain to lie than to tell de truth? since u gotta lie and make sure de other party will nv ever find out, u haf to think of a perrrfect lie. why lie and let de pax find out in de end? then in de 1st place, dun even bother to lie la.. so.. m i supposed to feel glad tat my frenz is lyin to me or wat? m i supposed to be grateful tat he is tryin to hide de truth and avoid gettin me hurt?
why dun say tat de pax who lied is actually de 1 whois afraid of facin de consequences? u din even noe how de other party will react, how can u be sure of de outcome? u r juz afraid to face de outcome, coz u dun even noe wat de outcome will be.. u simply dun wana see de outcome coz u noe if u say de truth, wat awaits u is de outcome, de reactn.. and it will not be sth gd definitely. so u r afraid. and u may juz think tat lyin is de best way out.
and is tat why many relationships cant wrk out? coz de guy dun wana let de ger worried, for fear tat she may read too much into it. and also nag him into it and even pick a quarrel, UNNECESSARILY. but gers on de other hand, i dunno abt de others.. but for most, i guess they cant tolerate their bfs lyin to her. it will cause de trust to fade away and in de end, they will read more into it. instead of blah blah blah.. they will think,"why did he lie to me?" gers wont think tat they are tat unreasonable as to flip table and pick a fight if their bfs said de truth.. they THINK they can accept de truth beta than a lie. yeah, definitely.. only when u compare de truth w/ a truth behind a lie..
so now wat? are guys supposed to be lyin..? contradictin rite? tazz wat tis post is all abt.. *lolZ*
Mr. ABC once told me,"if some 1 lies to u, i believe he got his own reason for lyin. he may haf thot of de consequences and thinks tat he shld hide de truth frm de other party.. coz he dun wana hurt de pax.."
it was such long ago he said to me coz i was havin some probz w/ my frenz. does it mean tat it takes more courage to lie than to say de truth? and does it take more brain to lie than to tell de truth? since u gotta lie and make sure de other party will nv ever find out, u haf to think of a perrrfect lie. why lie and let de pax find out in de end? then in de 1st place, dun even bother to lie la.. so.. m i supposed to feel glad tat my frenz is lyin to me or wat? m i supposed to be grateful tat he is tryin to hide de truth and avoid gettin me hurt?
why dun say tat de pax who lied is actually de 1 whois afraid of facin de consequences? u din even noe how de other party will react, how can u be sure of de outcome? u r juz afraid to face de outcome, coz u dun even noe wat de outcome will be.. u simply dun wana see de outcome coz u noe if u say de truth, wat awaits u is de outcome, de reactn.. and it will not be sth gd definitely. so u r afraid. and u may juz think tat lyin is de best way out.
and is tat why many relationships cant wrk out? coz de guy dun wana let de ger worried, for fear tat she may read too much into it. and also nag him into it and even pick a quarrel, UNNECESSARILY. but gers on de other hand, i dunno abt de others.. but for most, i guess they cant tolerate their bfs lyin to her. it will cause de trust to fade away and in de end, they will read more into it. instead of blah blah blah.. they will think,"why did he lie to me?" gers wont think tat they are tat unreasonable as to flip table and pick a fight if their bfs said de truth.. they THINK they can accept de truth beta than a lie. yeah, definitely.. only when u compare de truth w/ a truth behind a lie..
so now wat? are guys supposed to be lyin..? contradictin rite? tazz wat tis post is all abt.. *lolZ*
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